Saturday, November 26, 2005
i'm surprised that my new blog seemed to be known to more people than i've expected. If it wasn't for my friend, i wouldn't know that you posted an entry to scold me.
Can i make this really clear, if you are reading this?
What you have scolded me, are absolutely one-sided or from your own perspective. I do not mind even if you made it so clear in your blog that the person you are scolding is me. If your friends want to read that, and have any bad thoughts about me, go ahead alright. I wouldn't be arguing with you in your tag-board to explain.
I believe in what i do, even if it means people accusing me, as long as i know i did not do what i should not do, I'm conscious-clear.
U think it was wrong for me to take back my stuff from him? Let me tell you why i did it. It's my stuff, my own photos that i have been asking him to return to me since the day we parted. But he didn't want to.
Yes, it has been 8 months that we have parted, and yet i asked him back for my stuff. Why? Because i can see that both of you are really in love, thus there is really no point of him keeping my pictures and it was the best time to take it back from him. Did i not email you and ask you if he could kindly give it to me? Did i not let you know first before i done so. I even told you that i could take it from someone else instead of him, didn't i?
I did not secretly meet him. I did not meet him up for the thoughts of trying to break both of you up. I meet him up for ONE purpose - to finally get my stuff back. You can see that i don't ask for other material stuff back, i only asked for my photos. Why? Because the other things does not mean anything to me. I do not want my photos to end up with a man who chucked it one side and let it rust. Did i not tell you & him that he can cut his picture away and just give me back mine? Do you think i want the photos back because i want to see him?
I even told him that it would be best that he return my pictures to me, so that he can prove to you that he really loves you and the past is over. I told him that ample times. Finally, when he decided to return me, i thanked him for it. The post that i written on Thursday, might have angered you, for saying about the actions of your boyfriend. But did i bad-mouthed you? Did i write so much about you & him? I think i wrote more about myself. I only said that i hope you will be more confident and i know you are a confident person that's why i think you should stop thinking that i still want to get back with him and break both of you up. Because you kept thinking that i still 'love' your boyfriend, even in your post today. Would i not think that you are thinking too much? All these while, i am willing to treat him like a friend even though the past was horrible. That doesn't mean i like him. U said u are a woman, you know what i'm thinking but that doesn't mean every woman thinks the same way, my dear. I was asking nicely to you in MSN, you didn't want to reply & i didn't scream at you, i still told you, its alright.
You are his gf. You definitely thinks that what he did on Thursday was right. Let me tell you. Be in my position. A man whom i have known and was with for a year, he gave the stuff back to me by treating me as if i wasn't a human. I wasn't there. He passed it to a ghost. He did not and have not respected me as a woman. A man, a real man, would have sincerly passed it to me with two hands and dare to give me direct eye contact. And he just ran away back to you. Now, a mature person will not do that. Even if he knows that his gf is there, and he doesn't want to upset you. Whatever he did to me, you think was right?Maybe. Because you are not the woman that he did not disrespect you. What happened if you were his ex-gf and standing there receiving the stuff?
You want to know why i msged him after he did that action? I told myself, if i allow him to do that to me, without saying my piece, i am too forgiving. So i did, i knew you were there & i msged him to tell him my piece of mind. Do you know if he were to return me without being so rude, i would have been thankful that he agreed to give the stuff back to me? I was thankful that he finally agreed, i even wanted to say a word of 'Thank you' to him, he didn't gave me that chance. Do you think i want that day to end up like that? It was his actions that made the situation.
Sometimes, for whatever things that have happened, please look at the actions first and see who has been right or wrong, before jumping to scold me in your blog and let people think that i was acting like a bitch when you didn't state what has happened. And you are right, we have nothing to do with each other & please be assured that by taking my stuff back, there is nothing else i am asking for.
The way you wrote it in your blog, stated clearly that you have the authority to scold me. And you even wanted me to reflect on myself. Now, i have already reflected. But i know you wouldn't be happy with this post either. But can i just hope that everything ends from here. I told God honestly, i do not dislike you. Really, okay?
Just to let you know, since that you know my blog add again, i would set a password to it soon. If you dislike me and wouldn't want to have a single thing to do with me, then my new blog means nothing to you. I changed a new blog to start anew, and i didn't change a new blog to bad-mouth you. All the posts since the day i've changed, i didn't talk about you. Only until the day i met him up. So be assured, i didn't change it to scold you even more alright?
Since I've got the chance now to say this to Clarence, i would still say what i wish to say that day. Thank you, for agreeing to pass me back the stuff after so long. And, thank you for asking her not to scold me to make matters worst even though she blogged about it.
If you could kindly take down the post, i could too. Thank you. I'm not mad alright. I don't wish to be unhappy for things that are unnecessary.
i'm surprised that my new blog seemed to be known to more people than i've expected. If it wasn't for my friend, i wouldn't know that you posted an entry to scold me.
Can i make this really clear, if you are reading this?
What you have scolded me, are absolutely one-sided or from your own perspective. I do not mind even if you made it so clear in your blog that the person you are scolding is me. If your friends want to read that, and have any bad thoughts about me, go ahead alright. I wouldn't be arguing with you in your tag-board to explain.
I believe in what i do, even if it means people accusing me, as long as i know i did not do what i should not do, I'm conscious-clear.
U think it was wrong for me to take back my stuff from him? Let me tell you why i did it. It's my stuff, my own photos that i have been asking him to return to me since the day we parted. But he didn't want to.
Yes, it has been 8 months that we have parted, and yet i asked him back for my stuff. Why? Because i can see that both of you are really in love, thus there is really no point of him keeping my pictures and it was the best time to take it back from him. Did i not email you and ask you if he could kindly give it to me? Did i not let you know first before i done so. I even told you that i could take it from someone else instead of him, didn't i?
I did not secretly meet him. I did not meet him up for the thoughts of trying to break both of you up. I meet him up for ONE purpose - to finally get my stuff back. You can see that i don't ask for other material stuff back, i only asked for my photos. Why? Because the other things does not mean anything to me. I do not want my photos to end up with a man who chucked it one side and let it rust. Did i not tell you & him that he can cut his picture away and just give me back mine? Do you think i want the photos back because i want to see him?
I even told him that it would be best that he return my pictures to me, so that he can prove to you that he really loves you and the past is over. I told him that ample times. Finally, when he decided to return me, i thanked him for it. The post that i written on Thursday, might have angered you, for saying about the actions of your boyfriend. But did i bad-mouthed you? Did i write so much about you & him? I think i wrote more about myself. I only said that i hope you will be more confident and i know you are a confident person that's why i think you should stop thinking that i still want to get back with him and break both of you up. Because you kept thinking that i still 'love' your boyfriend, even in your post today. Would i not think that you are thinking too much? All these while, i am willing to treat him like a friend even though the past was horrible. That doesn't mean i like him. U said u are a woman, you know what i'm thinking but that doesn't mean every woman thinks the same way, my dear. I was asking nicely to you in MSN, you didn't want to reply & i didn't scream at you, i still told you, its alright.
You are his gf. You definitely thinks that what he did on Thursday was right. Let me tell you. Be in my position. A man whom i have known and was with for a year, he gave the stuff back to me by treating me as if i wasn't a human. I wasn't there. He passed it to a ghost. He did not and have not respected me as a woman. A man, a real man, would have sincerly passed it to me with two hands and dare to give me direct eye contact. And he just ran away back to you. Now, a mature person will not do that. Even if he knows that his gf is there, and he doesn't want to upset you. Whatever he did to me, you think was right?Maybe. Because you are not the woman that he did not disrespect you. What happened if you were his ex-gf and standing there receiving the stuff?
You want to know why i msged him after he did that action? I told myself, if i allow him to do that to me, without saying my piece, i am too forgiving. So i did, i knew you were there & i msged him to tell him my piece of mind. Do you know if he were to return me without being so rude, i would have been thankful that he agreed to give the stuff back to me? I was thankful that he finally agreed, i even wanted to say a word of 'Thank you' to him, he didn't gave me that chance. Do you think i want that day to end up like that? It was his actions that made the situation.
Sometimes, for whatever things that have happened, please look at the actions first and see who has been right or wrong, before jumping to scold me in your blog and let people think that i was acting like a bitch when you didn't state what has happened. And you are right, we have nothing to do with each other & please be assured that by taking my stuff back, there is nothing else i am asking for.
The way you wrote it in your blog, stated clearly that you have the authority to scold me. And you even wanted me to reflect on myself. Now, i have already reflected. But i know you wouldn't be happy with this post either. But can i just hope that everything ends from here. I told God honestly, i do not dislike you. Really, okay?
Just to let you know, since that you know my blog add again, i would set a password to it soon. If you dislike me and wouldn't want to have a single thing to do with me, then my new blog means nothing to you. I changed a new blog to start anew, and i didn't change a new blog to bad-mouth you. All the posts since the day i've changed, i didn't talk about you. Only until the day i met him up. So be assured, i didn't change it to scold you even more alright?
Since I've got the chance now to say this to Clarence, i would still say what i wish to say that day. Thank you, for agreeing to pass me back the stuff after so long. And, thank you for asking her not to scold me to make matters worst even though she blogged about it.
If you could kindly take down the post, i could too. Thank you. I'm not mad alright. I don't wish to be unhappy for things that are unnecessary.
i cried my heart out at 1:09 AM
Monday, November 21, 2005
My cute little doggie has to be here.
My cute little doggie has to be here.
i cried my heart out at 12:59 AM
Friday, November 11, 2005
Alright, i have moved! Some of you might have received my email regarding my new addy yea.
Some of you didn't receive cos i do not have your email addy in my hotmail. I will sms in that case.
Nothing much at the new bloggie yet cos i do not want to put my old post in. Things that are meant to be forgotten should be erased, but i would like to keep some of them esp the Canada trip. It's like a diary to me. :)
Let's hope that i'll have peace there.
Tagboard will be taken down soon on Mon. It's troublesome for all you not to add me in your links yea. Hee, sorry so i won't blame yea if you don't pop in. The addy is pretty simple, hope its easy to remember. Cheerios. :)
Alright, i have moved! Some of you might have received my email regarding my new addy yea.
Some of you didn't receive cos i do not have your email addy in my hotmail. I will sms in that case.
Nothing much at the new bloggie yet cos i do not want to put my old post in. Things that are meant to be forgotten should be erased, but i would like to keep some of them esp the Canada trip. It's like a diary to me. :)
Let's hope that i'll have peace there.
Tagboard will be taken down soon on Mon. It's troublesome for all you not to add me in your links yea. Hee, sorry so i won't blame yea if you don't pop in. The addy is pretty simple, hope its easy to remember. Cheerios. :)
i cried my heart out at 7:32 PM
My blog will be moved to a new addy for more privacy.
I will email/sms you my new bloggie.
Please do not add me to your links if not it will defeit the purpose. Thanks
i cried my heart out at 5:19 AM
Seen a doc today, had so many medication plus antibotics. Yuck. The fever goes on & off. Brr.
I better rest and recuperate at home, & watch more inspirational dvds.Yea Rufhie, did you watch the same 'Life is beautiful'? They spoke italian yea. My tears kept welling up, that man (Guido) is amazing. It's not suprising that he won the best actor award.
My sis will like sucha flim too. If you wanna watch, i'll bring it to Japan.
Oh sharks, few more days to Rac & Amy's birthday. I reckon she is gonna drag me to the clubs again. And we'll be having a party at one of the hotels in Sentosa. We did the same last year! And chalet too, oh no..it's gonna be all late nights next week. But on the bright side, there will be lotsa company :)
i cried my heart out at 4:33 AM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
I fell sick suddenly yesterday night. Had a bad throat & flu. I thought of dancing tonight, guess i gotta cancel the lessons.
Woke up today & still feel terrible, almost to a fever. But anyway, i was bored so i took out some Japanese animation by Miyazaki Hayao to watch. His animation is superb, don't ever think of cutey cartoons, it's definetly not my cup of tea for animations. Think of beautiful scenery, characters that comes alive and leave you ample space for provoking thoughts.
I want to watch Beautiful Minds on dvd one of these days. I heard it's excellent.
I gotta help my cousin's friend for a whole day of photo shoot in a few clubs tommorow. What a time to fall sick. I don't want to look sickly. Groans.
I fell sick suddenly yesterday night. Had a bad throat & flu. I thought of dancing tonight, guess i gotta cancel the lessons.
Woke up today & still feel terrible, almost to a fever. But anyway, i was bored so i took out some Japanese animation by Miyazaki Hayao to watch. His animation is superb, don't ever think of cutey cartoons, it's definetly not my cup of tea for animations. Think of beautiful scenery, characters that comes alive and leave you ample space for provoking thoughts.
I want to watch Beautiful Minds on dvd one of these days. I heard it's excellent.
I gotta help my cousin's friend for a whole day of photo shoot in a few clubs tommorow. What a time to fall sick. I don't want to look sickly. Groans.
i cried my heart out at 11:13 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
I watched a flim at home today on a lazy afternoon.
It was fantastic, a flim that was touching & unforgettable. I cried & laugh at the same time, and i had to applaude the director for sucha intelligent flim.
It's called Life is beautiful, 'La vita e bella'. It's an Italian flim and won 3 oscar winners and best foreign language film.
I'm so amazed by the story. The best movie i ever watched, and now 'a la folie pas du tout', a french movie is placed second. I guess french & italian flims are great. The plots are extremely imaginative.
The ending made me tear & had goosebumps. U will know it if you have watched it.
I watched a flim at home today on a lazy afternoon.
It was fantastic, a flim that was touching & unforgettable. I cried & laugh at the same time, and i had to applaude the director for sucha intelligent flim.
It's called Life is beautiful, 'La vita e bella'. It's an Italian flim and won 3 oscar winners and best foreign language film.
I'm so amazed by the story. The best movie i ever watched, and now 'a la folie pas du tout', a french movie is placed second. I guess french & italian flims are great. The plots are extremely imaginative.
The ending made me tear & had goosebumps. U will know it if you have watched it.
i cried my heart out at 11:11 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
And what happens when you put a subtle little boy with a hyperactive boy (who is the owner of the hyperactive jack russel, Choc) together to take a picture? Well, from their expressions, you can see pretty much that Brian (brother of cute & pretty ashley) doesn't seem to be bothered & Ben loves to be funny.They are my little rascals cousins. Brian looks like a japanese yea, like ashley. He speaks perfect eng. Once my mom offered him an orange at the age of two, he told my mum 'I don't like orange, its too tangy' My mom was shocked.
And what happens when you put a subtle little boy with a hyperactive boy (who is the owner of the hyperactive jack russel, Choc) together to take a picture? Well, from their expressions, you can see pretty much that Brian (brother of cute & pretty ashley) doesn't seem to be bothered & Ben loves to be funny.They are my little rascals cousins. Brian looks like a japanese yea, like ashley. He speaks perfect eng. Once my mom offered him an orange at the age of two, he told my mum 'I don't like orange, its too tangy' My mom was shocked.
i cried my heart out at 12:30 AM
Choc & Doggie. What happens when you put two female doggies together? Esp when one is a Jack Russel? Hmm...a tension rather than a party.
i cried my heart out at 12:23 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
I like this the most. Looks comfy & special. Would like to drop by it.
I like this the most. Looks comfy & special. Would like to drop by it.
i cried my heart out at 10:25 PM
I have no idea what this is, unique yea.
i cried my heart out at 10:23 PM
A nice old building, very historical
i cried my heart out at 10:20 PM
Some pictures to share what my sis had for her lunchie in a town.
i cried my heart out at 10:19 PM
I spent the whole of yesterday & today researching on Tokyo & other prefectures around it.
I was trying to plan my itinary and i realized it was kinda complicated when i was searching for how to get to the the tourist attractions. Nevertheless, it's still better to plan where do i wanna go before missing out on the hot spots. I won't be able to list the places i'll visit. It's alot & confusing names.
Even for Disneyland in Tokyo, there is Disneyland & Disneysea and we can only choose one to go for one ticket price unless we are willing to buy two entrance tickets, which will cost about $200 to go in for both(excluding rides). Stupid isn't it. And one day in disneyland will not be enough, so probably i'll have to buy a two day passport.
We'll be visiting the Ghibli museum, for people who knows & loves the japanese animation by the famous director, esp the cute Totoro. It's inconvenient in the sense that only reservations must be made then we can go in and there wouldn't be any ticket selling booths.
And the most irritating thing is that most hot springs only allow bare bodies and we have to look for hot springs that allow us to wear some clothing in. So many restrictions isn't it. I was calculating the money to be spent on the attractions, train rides to other prefectures or cities out of Tokyo, hotels, you wouldn't want to know because the travelling expenses alone is atrocious, not mentioning the money to be spent on food yet.
It's gonna be cold, very very cold in Japan. Sigh. I don't know if i like it or hate it.
i cried my heart out at 1:01 AM