[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Monday, May 30, 2005

Everyone's going home for summer vacation. I am goin home, Ber & Chris are going back to S'pore in the first week of August, they will go to Taiwan for a few days to shop & buy their Oakley stuff before heading to S'pore. Johan is going back to S'pore nearing end of July. Ben & Vanessa are going back to Hongkong & China & they might consider coming down to S'pore cos most of us are there. So yippee! Maybe we will get to see one another soon, this time have fun in S'pore. Its great to know friends from other countries. Its like a small family here as we are all asians.

I bought a book yesterday. The title caught my attention. Its called 'The seven lively sins. How to enjoy your life,dammit'. I read & it was pretty interesting that i couldn't bear to close the book. At the very last page, i was thinking, 'hey dammit, the book has captured all the thoughts & desires i have inside me' This book is sooo me. And i laughed. Every single thing that i've learn & new perceptions that i've gain in Canada was printed exactly in this book. I'm gonna bring it back to S'pore & use it as a reminder of motivation. I have also just picked up a book few days ago called ' The five people you meet in heaven'. My sis have this book but i never once wanted to touch it. But when im here, it sorta itch me to open it up & read. Its great. I have not finished reading it but im going to. Mind you, i dont read anything except fashion mags in S'pore. See how Canada has changed me. A good start. And hope it'll never stop.

I went to Steeles yesterday. Went to the huge Superstore & Winners. I can't stop buying things for my family. Each stuff that i see that S'pore doesnt have, i will have the tendency to pick it up, throw it into my cart & well, bills went up as well. haha. When i went home to pack the stuff, *Horrified* I need to buy another luggage (which i am going to do so today) & squeezed in all my stuff. The huge luggage that i brought here has already been misused by me. It has been tortured with all the squashing & squeezing. How much have i spent? $2000 plus plus plus..not including my air tic which is $2000 as well. So it adds up to estimated $5000. My money!!! Not so heartache yet cos its stuff i need or lets just say 'want'.*Wobbles* I have not gone to USA!!! (i was suppose to go USA on Fri but the Rainbow village at Niagara falls had simply too much to see so we gave up the thought & postpone it to this coming Fri. I predicted that i will spend about $200 in US for a day. Two luggages are simply inadequate. I see all the stuff i have at Ber's house, i'm happy but i wanna cry too. Haha. Now i know why my parents spent more than $10 000 when we were in Melbourne & Tasmania a year plus back. I always thought was ridiculous. But my expenditure alone, $5000..hmm..okay not ridiculous anymore.

I'm going to Cameron Highlands when i get back home. The thoughts doesnt excite me but going with my cousins? yippee! And at least its cold down there & i wouldn't complain that its hot. When my sis got back from Melbourne after 2 yrs,all she do everyday is complain that S'pore is hot & i find it so irritating. Now is my turn. *evil grins. Cyn, u betta watch out! I envy my sis, went to Melb for 2 years & going Tokyo for 2 more years or not gona come back. That's why i'm not goin to turn my envy into green. i'm gona turn my envy into realizing & fufiling my dreams. There is like a full tank oil in my engine that drives me up. No way am i gonna come down. This is me. Stella. A girl who always wanna get anything she wants & hope for. kick'ass. Laughs.

i cried my heart out at 10:03 AM