Monday, January 31, 2005
The anger is gone. Whatever i have wrote bout' the nasty stuff, i was kinda guilty bout it. I was mad at that point, i jus' couldnt control my temper. However, i guess however and whatever the situation has ended, i blame no one.
I know that people has different views in life, be it subjective or objective.People possess different goals that they want to acheive.To each its own. That's what separates people. So even when things turn out to be not so picture perfect, i dont blame anyone. I dont know whether i should blame myself, but jus put it in a way that i see things from different angles. Otherwise the world would be borin isnt it? and there wouldn't be great designers exisitin.
No one can force anyone to see light in their views.
The anger is gone. Whatever i have wrote bout' the nasty stuff, i was kinda guilty bout it. I was mad at that point, i jus' couldnt control my temper. However, i guess however and whatever the situation has ended, i blame no one.
I know that people has different views in life, be it subjective or objective.People possess different goals that they want to acheive.To each its own. That's what separates people. So even when things turn out to be not so picture perfect, i dont blame anyone. I dont know whether i should blame myself, but jus put it in a way that i see things from different angles. Otherwise the world would be borin isnt it? and there wouldn't be great designers exisitin.
No one can force anyone to see light in their views.
i cried my heart out at 9:31 PM
Went down to suntec Marche with my poly friends for the two birthday gals. Imagine we had to take 3 cabs to suntec..thats like loads of girls. laughs.
The food was yummy..had rosti, crayfish and my favourite cranberry juice(x2) laughs again. Well its my fav ya know..i jus cant have enough of it. Had a good laugh with the gals, making fun of rufhie's chinese name. er hem.
Well, too bad, tomorrow there is an important interview that came up last minute so everyone was rushin home to prepare their work. sighs..but im still kinda lazy to do my work, still lazing around and talkin to rachel on the phone.
i cried my heart out at 9:00 PM
im a vintage bear. define cute. its in me. shakes your head? u r jealous. ahaha
i cried my heart out at 7:41 AM
i tot someone misses me? pls kiss me. im a bear and i need hugs.
i cried my heart out at 7:15 AM
gettin bored. isnt my bear cute. definetly not genes from me
i cried my heart out at 7:13 AM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
sharks...sch startin' tomorrow. Sobz.. hey but somethin to cheer me up! after lecture the bunch of girls are either goin for dinner or ktv for alyssa's post bday party! And tml is the 31st of Jan. Hmm, thats the day when i met bunnie last yr while celebrating with alyssa. How come we always celebrate alyssa's bday on the 31st??? Exactly a year oh boy..Prezies? haha..
my dearies(buno) have been keepin me company the whole of today. sunday's borin. sighs. someone pls perk me up!
sharks...sch startin' tomorrow. Sobz.. hey but somethin to cheer me up! after lecture the bunch of girls are either goin for dinner or ktv for alyssa's post bday party! And tml is the 31st of Jan. Hmm, thats the day when i met bunnie last yr while celebrating with alyssa. How come we always celebrate alyssa's bday on the 31st??? Exactly a year oh boy..Prezies? haha..
my dearies(buno) have been keepin me company the whole of today. sunday's borin. sighs. someone pls perk me up!
i cried my heart out at 8:36 PM
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at allI
f it ain’t you babyIf I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, you, you
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
See, nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby
i cried my heart out at 2:24 PM
i love her! I'd die to look like her..
i cried my heart out at 4:57 AM
retrospective..too big a smile. irks.
i cried my heart out at 4:51 AM
oh no, my cheeks are gettin fatter and i think i look older. AAaahh..
i cried my heart out at 4:45 AM
Saturday, January 29, 2005
pixie's back at 10.45pm..sighs.. Well the day went fine. Only me & rac went walkin ard. Ceres had to acc her mom for shoppin as well and we kept bummin into each other. Real coicidence.
Felt a little irritated because orchard was crowded due to last min shoppers. I was glad to have my best friend with me, at least i wont feel lonely and happier of course. I have no idea why, my heart kept having the pain of needle piercing it thru. Had experienced it long ago and went for a medical ECG check-up and now its back again. Its quite unbearable at times, makes me hard to breath or have the feelin' that the heart's gona burst out with blood. sobz.
well, rac was complain' that her V day is gona suck..but i consoled her and said that i will be in the same state as her. Prob we should just spend it together. Davidoff's havin promotion in orchard today and they were givin out roses to the women. Both of us got it..haha. kinda sweet.
She was complainin bout her life while we were goin home together in cab. But the sweet miracle happened. Her beau from algeria called her and she was over the moon. Well, its so sweet. I mean, when she is upset..she got a call from her loved one and that makes her day. She isnt sad anymore at the end of the day. She was talkin to her beau while i just stared out of the window admirin the night scene. Im happy for her. Thou i wished it would be me, it wouldn't so i dont hope. I dont like hopin, it becomes fat hopes at the end of the day.
Well, its really hurting. I cant write anymore. I betta go rest. Thanks bloggie for sharin. Luv'ya.
pixie's back at 10.45pm..sighs.. Well the day went fine. Only me & rac went walkin ard. Ceres had to acc her mom for shoppin as well and we kept bummin into each other. Real coicidence.
Felt a little irritated because orchard was crowded due to last min shoppers. I was glad to have my best friend with me, at least i wont feel lonely and happier of course. I have no idea why, my heart kept having the pain of needle piercing it thru. Had experienced it long ago and went for a medical ECG check-up and now its back again. Its quite unbearable at times, makes me hard to breath or have the feelin' that the heart's gona burst out with blood. sobz.
well, rac was complain' that her V day is gona suck..but i consoled her and said that i will be in the same state as her. Prob we should just spend it together. Davidoff's havin promotion in orchard today and they were givin out roses to the women. Both of us got it..haha. kinda sweet.
She was complainin bout her life while we were goin home together in cab. But the sweet miracle happened. Her beau from algeria called her and she was over the moon. Well, its so sweet. I mean, when she is upset..she got a call from her loved one and that makes her day. She isnt sad anymore at the end of the day. She was talkin to her beau while i just stared out of the window admirin the night scene. Im happy for her. Thou i wished it would be me, it wouldn't so i dont hope. I dont like hopin, it becomes fat hopes at the end of the day.
Well, its really hurting. I cant write anymore. I betta go rest. Thanks bloggie for sharin. Luv'ya.
i cried my heart out at 10:59 PM
pixie dances around with her wings fluttering rapidly and she starts singing with a er hem.. pixie voice, a song by alicia keys 'if i aint got yoooooouuuuuu' Woohoo..one of pixie's fav love song of all! she is excited because finally, today is the day where she gets to meet up with her lovely fairies and have a hellaluva time. They shall carry baskets and buzz around gleefully picking wild berries, drinking choc' marshmallow and lyin' on the soft green patch of neverland grass, with enormous clouds by-passin' above. Picture purrfect.
pixie ended the song with 'if i aint got you baby, everything means nothin, if i ain't got yooouuuu'. Er hem..Clap clap. hello? louder..thank U. Well, why is pixie so free even thou she is gona meet up with the fairies, she should be sprinkling on some dust, twisting her hair in proper place instead of writing her faithful diary. Well well...if you dont know, the fairies would take their own sweet time shavin' their silky legs, sprinkling glitter on their face, throwin a dozen of clothes out and start plucking petals of the roses to see what shall they wear. After which, they would have to go through a 'fit the shoe' session before they could fly out to meet pixie. Well, its the fairies life. chuckles.
Its been a week since pixie met the fairies. Ooh..beautiful. They are the lovely belles. While pixie is jus an ordinary small size elfie lookin' creature. awww..pixie did a somersault in the sky and her wings used up too much energy. Re-fuel pls. Hmm, a chocolate bar would do the trick. Munch munch. Lovely.. Her wings are energized! Its time to make this little pixie pretty. Get changed!!!! a bee screamed into pixie's ears..oops its her secretary. pixie flutters hurriedly back to the puny mushroom. Pops out her head and winks 'cya soon bloggie' .
i cried my heart out at 12:45 PM
Friday, January 28, 2005
Sighs, its a friday. What should i do today? Tomorrow would be meetin ceres & rac for a buddie time. Maybe i should jus coop myself at home today and do some work.
I had terrible dreams yesterday. It was heart-racing. But im all glad that i woke up from it. Kinda scary, haha..not gona elaborate much!
Yikes! I finally do not have to return my daddy cash from this month onwards! Have been payin him for a year becos he loaned me money for some bonds investment. However, i would have to put aside few hundred bucks startin from this month for my air ticket to melbourne & new zealand. actually, i always have 2nd thoughts bout' travellin'..i don't know. I seem to have morbid tots each time i travel. Never mind, jus go with a happy heart.
Howz my mousey story? haha..childish? dumb? sad? Well, different perspective from everyone. I would look at it as pitiful. hee.
Sighs, its a friday. What should i do today? Tomorrow would be meetin ceres & rac for a buddie time. Maybe i should jus coop myself at home today and do some work.
I had terrible dreams yesterday. It was heart-racing. But im all glad that i woke up from it. Kinda scary, haha..not gona elaborate much!
Yikes! I finally do not have to return my daddy cash from this month onwards! Have been payin him for a year becos he loaned me money for some bonds investment. However, i would have to put aside few hundred bucks startin from this month for my air ticket to melbourne & new zealand. actually, i always have 2nd thoughts bout' travellin'..i don't know. I seem to have morbid tots each time i travel. Never mind, jus go with a happy heart.
Howz my mousey story? haha..childish? dumb? sad? Well, different perspective from everyone. I would look at it as pitiful. hee.
i cried my heart out at 1:00 PM
i had the sudden urge of having a manicure done during midday becos it was borin coopin at home. I went out alone, yes alone..so unexpected of me to go out alone. Well, maybe i have to get use to solo life. sighs..I hate loneliness. But i wouldnt get a partner just to ease my heart. what's the use? to me, chemistry is very important. I can't have chemistry with everyone, not even good looking guys.
boohoo, luckily i've got my best buds to accompany me tml. how i wish the day pass faster and i would so happier to see people around me. pixie's heart shattered and the pieces couldnt be fixed back so soon.
i cried my heart out at 11:28 AM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
There used to be two little mouse who were deeply in love with each other. They dated, fell in love and started to live their lives together. However, they didn't know that both of them had the same hobby. A deep dark hobby that each of them kept from one another. Whats the secret hobby? Well, its to bite each other when they are feelin' unhappy with one another. It sounds like rather sadistic..biting one another. But yea, true. And so when one mouse is unhappy with the other, the mouse will bite the other mouse..let it bleed and laugh at it. Well, everytime the minor wounds sort of recover sometime quite soon. However, the bitin continues each time an unhappy incident occurs..and guess what? too many unhappy incidents occured & inflicted many wounds on both of the mouse. Both of them died in the end..due to excessive bleedin'. Well, end of the story. Its rather a sad endin. Thou they love one another, they just cant stop biting each other. No one is able to help them.
The little mouse still loves the other mousey, but it has been hurt badly due to the major wounds. So even thou she wanted to save the other mousey, she doesnt possess the strength to do so. In the end, she jus has to watch the other mousey die right before her eyes. soon after, she dragged herself beside her beloved mouse and went into deep sleep.
There used to be two little mouse who were deeply in love with each other. They dated, fell in love and started to live their lives together. However, they didn't know that both of them had the same hobby. A deep dark hobby that each of them kept from one another. Whats the secret hobby? Well, its to bite each other when they are feelin' unhappy with one another. It sounds like rather sadistic..biting one another. But yea, true. And so when one mouse is unhappy with the other, the mouse will bite the other mouse..let it bleed and laugh at it. Well, everytime the minor wounds sort of recover sometime quite soon. However, the bitin continues each time an unhappy incident occurs..and guess what? too many unhappy incidents occured & inflicted many wounds on both of the mouse. Both of them died in the end..due to excessive bleedin'. Well, end of the story. Its rather a sad endin. Thou they love one another, they just cant stop biting each other. No one is able to help them.
The little mouse still loves the other mousey, but it has been hurt badly due to the major wounds. So even thou she wanted to save the other mousey, she doesnt possess the strength to do so. In the end, she jus has to watch the other mousey die right before her eyes. soon after, she dragged herself beside her beloved mouse and went into deep sleep.
i cried my heart out at 9:30 PM
caught a french movie today..The tittle really intrigues me to watch it. Its called 'Une vie a t'attendre' put it simply in english would be 'I've been waiting for so long'. And after bein' lured by the title of the show, the phrases continue to make me ponder for the finale of the show. It wrote ' Can a relationship that was impossible in the past work this time round?' Wow, seems interestin'. gotta catch it!
Well, as usual..french movies are NO DOUBT french movies. They love to mess up your mind at the beginning of the show. Its kinda borin'. Cos you would have no idea who is in love with who or the person's relationship with one another. Hmm, well the story is jus' about a man who already has a fiancee and one fine day,he happened to meet a woman he once loved ten years ago.
Well, he was really excited to see her once again and set his mind to get her back. The woman was reluctant initially, because she felt that the man has hurt her way too much, only til she found out that all these while the man has still been lovin' her and they had some misunderstandins' in the past. They reminisce the past together and revived the good ol' days together.
Jus when she has decided to put her heart & soul into the r/s, the man's fiancee got pregant. The fiancee was very upset with the both of them. The man was put in a dilemma. However, he felt that he shouldnt leave the fiancee & the baby. But in his heart, he was still deeply in love with the ol' flame. They decided to leave the country together so that they could lead a life of their own in a small town of Italy. Well, they were plannin to get away, bgt air tickets etc and promised to meet at the airport. The finale was ' the man came runnin into the airport with his luggage..and they were separated by the glass windows. The woman's face was hopeful, however, the man signalled by shookin his head and she've got the hint'. The end.
I tot it was a rather blant endin. Was expectin more because the body of the story drew the audience to expect a rather good endin. ( i mean, either good nor bad) but dont end it by shaking the head and thats it? humph.
i cried my heart out at 9:00 PM
whoever tot that i was talkin to my confidant about him, i really have many other things in mind that im upset about..everything jus came in a rush. and my head is growin bigger. thanks for lettin me pass some burden to you.
alright, i gota prepare to go to sch..sighs. au revoir.
i cried my heart out at 8:49 AM
haha found a pic that fits my story.
i cried my heart out at 6:31 AM
jus got back home from grapevine. I've a serious headache before i went out. my head's too heavy..I NEED A BREAK.
im glad my confidant is always there. and i felt much better. Thou i was coughin like a patient with pneunomia, and it scares harold a little..im still strong enough. I jus need a dosage of cough syrup before i head to bed.
Jus saw a long time pal in sch today. He is like a bro to me. I cant believe i didnt see him for 2 years and he has turned 26 this year. Didnt noe we had such age gap. Sucha nice pal, offered to send me home in his car after my sch but i was still stuck in sch with my design lecturer yakkin. hah.
alrite, tonight i must catch some early winks. its been tiring these few days. oh..and im so glad they are alright now..back together. YEA!
i cried my heart out at 1:00 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
im in bewilderness. im definetly not impressed.
im in bewilderness. im definetly not impressed.
i cried my heart out at 10:20 PM
The weather is killin me, so humid! Pixie just had a bowl of instant noodles,too lazy to walk out of the house to buy my fav mac! Well, the guys would be going for the advert audition today. Pray hard that they will be selected.
I think i would be staying home today. Going out means spending cash. slaps my head. Cant wait till friday to get my pay and this little pixie would be a fatty rich one..haha. I gota discipline myself to save up my red packets so that i can splurge in Melbourne & New zealand. I dont wana go there and have to scrimp every cents that i have. Left 4 months plus to save up shopping money! Yikes.
i cried my heart out at 1:22 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
seems like nowadays, im starting to meet weird men again around my housing estate and they like to give me this eerie look that sends shivers down my spine. I always pray hard that i get into the lift alone otherwise my heart thumps really fast. sighs. going home can be a chore too.
anyway, i've only 6 days left to enjoy before sch commences. Alyssa was asking the group of gals to go ktv for her birthday(for a change). wasnt really keen on singing, but i guess i would go to show my face. heh.. Betta do something meaningful, dont let my short term break slip past that easily. I wana go out and have FUN.
oh the urge for having a picnic arouses me when i went to East coast on Sun. Great weather, lovely breeze and many babes in their roller blades. ooh,too bad im not a les. haha. well, since i have nothing to do today, i beta get an early nite.. pixie tucks herself under the comfort of her blanket. sweet dreams
seems like nowadays, im starting to meet weird men again around my housing estate and they like to give me this eerie look that sends shivers down my spine. I always pray hard that i get into the lift alone otherwise my heart thumps really fast. sighs. going home can be a chore too.
anyway, i've only 6 days left to enjoy before sch commences. Alyssa was asking the group of gals to go ktv for her birthday(for a change). wasnt really keen on singing, but i guess i would go to show my face. heh.. Betta do something meaningful, dont let my short term break slip past that easily. I wana go out and have FUN.
oh the urge for having a picnic arouses me when i went to East coast on Sun. Great weather, lovely breeze and many babes in their roller blades. ooh,too bad im not a les. haha. well, since i have nothing to do today, i beta get an early nite.. pixie tucks herself under the comfort of her blanket. sweet dreams
i cried my heart out at 11:45 PM
yawnz..had a stupid seminar at 8.30 am in school today. I could have stayed home and sleep like a hog but no choice, they threatened to take up 10% of our subject,so i had to go. Gosh, its something like the NE talk and only finished around 12.30. The convention centre was so cold and i couldnt be bothered to listen after the next half of the talk. Actually, it really doesnt concern us teachers very much. They just want us to go and fill up the entire theatre i guess. Grr.. Slept late yesterday so was yawning non stop. oink..
Well, i wanted to go home and catch a good nap but alyssa and the rest kept pestering me to go shopping with them. Didnt wanna disappoint them, so i followed along. Went shop around and decided to buy new year clothes for my mum. She is so stingy on herself, not deciding to buy new clothes for new year so i guess i would be a good girl and buy for her. Saw something kinda nice and suitable for her at U2 and bought it. Came home and gave it to her..luckily she could wear it and it fits just nice, didnt have to bother to change her size..haha. well since im wearing xs, i predicted that she wears S and i was right! Nowadays i hardly see nice clothes for myself..i really dont know why. Mango was okay, i liked the simple tank tops and bought two for school. Urgh..still have not decided what to buy for new year. Definetly have to go down to orchard to get something this week. I do not have the time anymore! My friends were counting down..they said only 15 days left to Chinese new year.
I betta be a good girl and not have itchy hands to wear my new clothes before new year. Its a bad habit. hah. Should be shopping around with the gals -ceres & rac. Oops, my mum has just finished cooking dinner..yummy. my fav japanese udon. Gota go.. pixie flews off in a hurry.
i cried my heart out at 6:30 PM
my dumb cat
i cried my heart out at 5:32 AM
what r ya lookin' at?
i cried my heart out at 5:28 AM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
pixie's having lunch..wild berries, dew water & a popsicle forr dessert..haha..jus love imagining a pixie's life. but im really having lunch. After that, i would get dress and head out for a while. I have no idea where i would be going, would have last minute plans. im a person who cant stay home on sundays. it just sorta dampen my mood and i would take afternoon naps without fail jus so that the day pass faster. But i've decided not to waste my sundays by piggin..go out and have a fresh breath of air.
Gota come home and start on my design projects again. School's not over thou its the term break. I still have deadlines to submit..in another 2 months, i will graduate from TP. counting down the days..i guess i would miss poly life somehow..
pixie's having lunch..wild berries, dew water & a popsicle forr dessert..haha..jus love imagining a pixie's life. but im really having lunch. After that, i would get dress and head out for a while. I have no idea where i would be going, would have last minute plans. im a person who cant stay home on sundays. it just sorta dampen my mood and i would take afternoon naps without fail jus so that the day pass faster. But i've decided not to waste my sundays by piggin..go out and have a fresh breath of air.
Gota come home and start on my design projects again. School's not over thou its the term break. I still have deadlines to submit..in another 2 months, i will graduate from TP. counting down the days..i guess i would miss poly life somehow..
i cried my heart out at 12:20 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
pixie just flew home from coffee bean with Rac, was feeling a little down..didnt wanna stay home and asked if rach wana meet me at J8 coffee bean to chill out.she was cool about it thou it was already 8 plus. Then i went down to collect my container from Jason, had been lying at his house for ages ever since xmas..haha
Now im back home, idling..didnt know what to do, prob talk to rach before i go off to bed. She is sucha happy girl today as her darling went down to her house to see her..sooo sweet and she has always been waiting for the day and it finally comes true. glad for her pal! pixie wants a hug as well..fat hope..
pixie just flew home from coffee bean with Rac, was feeling a little down..didnt wanna stay home and asked if rach wana meet me at J8 coffee bean to chill out.she was cool about it thou it was already 8 plus. Then i went down to collect my container from Jason, had been lying at his house for ages ever since xmas..haha
Now im back home, idling..didnt know what to do, prob talk to rach before i go off to bed. She is sucha happy girl today as her darling went down to her house to see her..sooo sweet and she has always been waiting for the day and it finally comes true. glad for her pal! pixie wants a hug as well..fat hope..
i cried my heart out at 11:57 PM
alrites..party's over..Im staying at home doing housework. Another weekend spent at home. Why? Because we always have cold wars esp during weekends and thus we never seem to be able to spend it together. It has become a routine. Every sat and sun, i would just have to find things to do to kill time when he goes out with his friends, for drinks or shoppin..watever. Yes i know, its my fault. Not blaming anyone but me.
Yesterday met rac and ceres at compasspoint to get Jing hui's prezie before we head down to the condo. He would definetly love the prezie cos its just so cool and branded. I was feeling pretty hungry,once i reached there, i just sat down and gobble food down. The food was not bad, and i popped down so many m&m's and ate a slice of delicious chocolate cake. Yummy. Also had a bottle of hoegarden beer..mmm..best beer in the world. Just love white beer! Ceres and the guys were the photographers of the day and we again, took many pictures and we cant wait to flash it on friendster! haha, all of us just love taking pictures together. We are just like a family, everyone knows everyone and we became good friends with Jason's cousin etc..Met his cute little cousin named Jia wei yesterday. So big eyes and a cute dimple..aww..just love to mess his hair up.
Rac decided to take a dip with her cheongsam on with Ping hui. Haha, and she was shivering like madness cos the waters really cold at 11pm. Too bad the security guard came and chased them up. The guys were really incredibles, didnt want to go home even if its 12.30am so they decided to play games by the pool. however, i guess the game is a brain cell killer and most are tired and wasnt very keen with it. I wanted to go home as i have been having late nights these few days, just hope that i could sleep early tonight. Just as i was about to go home, jason and ceres sorta have a conflict about the going home issue. It ended quite bad..and ceres & rac stayed so that jason wouldnt be mad. But i really wanted to go home so Jing hui and pinghui drove and send me home. Felt kinda bad..they should have just stayed there and play the games. I could always take a cab home. its kinda near. But the guys just wouldnt allow cos its like 1 plus in the morning. first time, i see the 'perfect couple' had a not-so-good conflict and in my mind i was thinking, is there no such things as perfection even though they do look like a perfect match. each couple has their own problems and stuff..outsiders would never understand.
Ooh and Jason has got a really cool tattoo at a very mysterious place. we only got to see half of it, haha..only ceres gets to see the whole picture. Its nice..damn..just like the calvin klein underwear model and Jason was wearing that too. Just hope they are okay, no more quarrels after the night's incident.
well, for me. my guy's been treating me really nice. always bringin me to nice places and restaurants and treatin me food that i have never eaten before. Actually, i have no idea y he loves doing that but it has always been that case, he just loves to bring me to nice places to eat. however, sometimes i wonder..am i really a person who loves eating? the answer is not really. And i did tell him so many times i dont crave for such stuff. I mean, all i want in a guy is to be there for me when i need him and i dont need superficial stuff. I guess both of us at the end of the day, still do not know what each other wants & needs. If he could always accompany me to functions and parties and not leave me to go alone, i would be really happy. I dont need expensive treats to make me happy. But all these while, he has been doing that to make me happy. Yes im happy that he brings me to eat good food etc, it shows that he loves me but the kind of love that i want is not pampering me with treats. I just need a guy to be there when i want him to be. I always seem to be going solo to places with my friends. however when its any occassions at his side, i would follow him. I mean, im his gf, im suppose to be by his side whether or not i know the people. Since im his gf, i follow him. but he doesnt like to follow me and i always end up feeling lonely and shity and thats why quarrels pop up every now and then regarding the same issue.
I seriously do not know what to do. he is nice definetly. but it seems like the things i need is something that he doesnt like to do. and i have been wondering, am i able to give up the things i need for e.g. not asking him to accompany me to places or my friends' party. Can i really ignore that? i really dont know. i love him thats why i would think of ignoring that fact, but it seems all these while, im still getting upset with him for not joinin me. im confused.
i cried my heart out at 2:29 PM
Friday, January 21, 2005
Havent been blogging for two days..Was enjoying myself right after the last paper. Wee! My friends suggested chinatown, and my gosh, this was the first time that i ever really went chinatown to walk around. Had dim sum at Red star..yummy but got kinda full really soon. After that, i went down to PS to meet bunnie and went shopping around for gifts. Well, a long walk down from PS to orchard and we head into any departmental stores thats right before us to shun the scorching sun and heat. My leg sorta got blisters on both sides...guess its time i stop wearing those sandles. It has been hurting me badly for quite some time however because its a gift from bunnie for my 21st birthday last year, i didnt bear to throw it away nor chuck it aside.
We head down to clare best fren -Jon's house for steamboat and had a sumptous seafood dinner, well, i was more of picking up the quail eggs to eat becos its my childhood fav food..havent been eating for 10 over years. And the tom yum soup was choking me..Need lotsa plain water. Lousy aint i?Jon also turned 21 yrs old..haha..i've got a few more months to be the same age as him before i get older again. Im old..yes..really old..gota keep my youth,its precious. it will just slip away and never come back again. Looking back at my teenage years, i think i havent been really enjoying much. Yea, got some freedom here and there but its not what im concerned about. I just want to enjoy the youth time of courtship, friends, hang out and have a hellaluva time, do crazy things that i would never do when i grow old. Although its abit late for me now, im still in time for another few more years of fun. And i must have FUN!
After turning 21 yrs old, its really like a time where you start to realise that you aint getting any younger and all these 21 yrs of living has been unfruitful and been pondering 'what have i been doing for all these years?' sounds kinda bad but it is that bad..All i can remember is studies and studies and stupid mistakes that i have done so much in the past. I do NOT want to live another 21 years again having to regret what i have not done and really live life to the fullest.
Havent been blogging for two days..Was enjoying myself right after the last paper. Wee! My friends suggested chinatown, and my gosh, this was the first time that i ever really went chinatown to walk around. Had dim sum at Red star..yummy but got kinda full really soon. After that, i went down to PS to meet bunnie and went shopping around for gifts. Well, a long walk down from PS to orchard and we head into any departmental stores thats right before us to shun the scorching sun and heat. My leg sorta got blisters on both sides...guess its time i stop wearing those sandles. It has been hurting me badly for quite some time however because its a gift from bunnie for my 21st birthday last year, i didnt bear to throw it away nor chuck it aside.
We head down to clare best fren -Jon's house for steamboat and had a sumptous seafood dinner, well, i was more of picking up the quail eggs to eat becos its my childhood fav food..havent been eating for 10 over years. And the tom yum soup was choking me..Need lotsa plain water. Lousy aint i?Jon also turned 21 yrs old..haha..i've got a few more months to be the same age as him before i get older again. Im old..yes..really old..gota keep my youth,its precious. it will just slip away and never come back again. Looking back at my teenage years, i think i havent been really enjoying much. Yea, got some freedom here and there but its not what im concerned about. I just want to enjoy the youth time of courtship, friends, hang out and have a hellaluva time, do crazy things that i would never do when i grow old. Although its abit late for me now, im still in time for another few more years of fun. And i must have FUN!
After turning 21 yrs old, its really like a time where you start to realise that you aint getting any younger and all these 21 yrs of living has been unfruitful and been pondering 'what have i been doing for all these years?' sounds kinda bad but it is that bad..All i can remember is studies and studies and stupid mistakes that i have done so much in the past. I do NOT want to live another 21 years again having to regret what i have not done and really live life to the fullest.
I aint a crazy or wild girl. I dont crave for bungee jump or flirting with guys(thats what people always tell me, flirt when you are young!) well..hmm..nah..I just want to do things that i love, travel round the world, being with people i love and spending quality time together, socialising with my friends (having a buddies time), gaining a fruitful relationship that turns out to be a lovely sweet marriage, having a family probably but that would be much later like when im 27. I havent had enough of my freedom. Enjoy every minute and moment that i've got..thats how i savour and appreciate my life.
Well now im dressed to the nines..Preparing to go for a birthday party (jason's cousin, Jing hui). Get to meet all of them and have a hellaluva time i hope. Didnt feel so well before, had another dispute with bunnie. Hope he gets a better girlfriend the next time round, i aint good enough. owells..bother..watever, just make sure he doesnt choose someone like me again. haha i dont think he dare to. Dont know if we have time later to visit that cool place. lets just see how but i dont wanna come home too late. Au revoir
i cried my heart out at 1:56 AM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
alright..i got something better than just a bottle of herbal tea. Fish porridge for a sick girl specially from him. no it wasnt a dream..thank you, i really appreciate what you have done. u came despite of your busy workload.
u seem so bored everytime at my house. i've always wish to say why dont you go home then, but a part of me always doesn't want you to leave, so i refrain from saying til you volunteer to go home.
was it me or you, that i felt something peculiar today. as if i have lost something. the feeling came so sudden and i felt that we were miles apart thou you were near. am i gonna lose something soon?
alright..i got something better than just a bottle of herbal tea. Fish porridge for a sick girl specially from him. no it wasnt a dream..thank you, i really appreciate what you have done. u came despite of your busy workload.
u seem so bored everytime at my house. i've always wish to say why dont you go home then, but a part of me always doesn't want you to leave, so i refrain from saying til you volunteer to go home.
was it me or you, that i felt something peculiar today. as if i have lost something. the feeling came so sudden and i felt that we were miles apart thou you were near. am i gonna lose something soon?
i cried my heart out at 5:16 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
Dont ever doubt thy's love for thee, its the unexplainable miracle that sprung on thy. from this moment, i shall never be the same again.i love thee. poet: pixie pie.
finally, one paper down. It was difficult, confusing, nerve wrecking but still im glad its over! phew..tomorrow would be a rest day for me. Fell more sick when i went to school today. Prob, its because both of my good friends were ill too and somehow we got together and spread the disease happily. Was feeling really terrible..the flu bug jus came unmercingly..My immune system is really down. sobz
im munching my dinner as well as writing my blog..munch munch..like some cotton wool stuff into pixie's mouth. A late dinner..ya..really late..11pm??gosh.. hmm then supper then. Had a hair cut today and highlights. How did it turn out? well, i really don't know. sheesh..i dont quite like it but its okay. Hmm, never mind..others appreciate it would be enough. rachel's hair would be a drastic change from today, haha..i wonder if she likes her new hair do! keep my fingers cross.
how i wish someone would come here with a bottle of herbal tea for me..haha..fat hope. in my dreams maybe tonight. gotta get back to work later, no off days though im a pale pixie. haha. pixie starts buzzing off..
Dont ever doubt thy's love for thee, its the unexplainable miracle that sprung on thy. from this moment, i shall never be the same again.i love thee. poet: pixie pie.
finally, one paper down. It was difficult, confusing, nerve wrecking but still im glad its over! phew..tomorrow would be a rest day for me. Fell more sick when i went to school today. Prob, its because both of my good friends were ill too and somehow we got together and spread the disease happily. Was feeling really terrible..the flu bug jus came unmercingly..My immune system is really down. sobz
im munching my dinner as well as writing my blog..munch munch..like some cotton wool stuff into pixie's mouth. A late dinner..ya..really late..11pm??gosh.. hmm then supper then. Had a hair cut today and highlights. How did it turn out? well, i really don't know. sheesh..i dont quite like it but its okay. Hmm, never mind..others appreciate it would be enough. rachel's hair would be a drastic change from today, haha..i wonder if she likes her new hair do! keep my fingers cross.
how i wish someone would come here with a bottle of herbal tea for me..haha..fat hope. in my dreams maybe tonight. gotta get back to work later, no off days though im a pale pixie. haha. pixie starts buzzing off..
i cried my heart out at 11:10 PM
everlasting love.
i cried my heart out at 7:32 AM
are you taking pictures of us? cheez
i cried my heart out at 7:29 AM
love at first sight
i cried my heart out at 7:27 AM
an old pix i found. thee and i
i cried my heart out at 7:23 AM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
put aside my studies for a while to check my mail and do some evaluation online. slept lotsa today. Had an afternoon nap as well. Well, sunday is boring and i cant go for coffee breaks as i went with harold yesterday.
sighs.wats wrong with my life? i should just stop sighin, worrying and being upset. I want to count my blessings and be the happiest girl in the world. maybe i should jus be les..hah..then rachel would be my les partner. hah. should just stop torturing pple and myself. nobody understands me. owells,nvm..
Tommorrow's my first paper! hmm, kinda worried. But can't wait to finish all my papers on thurs and i would be free!! for a week only actually..haha..little pixie fly back to the books and buried her face..
put aside my studies for a while to check my mail and do some evaluation online. slept lotsa today. Had an afternoon nap as well. Well, sunday is boring and i cant go for coffee breaks as i went with harold yesterday.
sighs.wats wrong with my life? i should just stop sighin, worrying and being upset. I want to count my blessings and be the happiest girl in the world. maybe i should jus be les..hah..then rachel would be my les partner. hah. should just stop torturing pple and myself. nobody understands me. owells,nvm..
Tommorrow's my first paper! hmm, kinda worried. But can't wait to finish all my papers on thurs and i would be free!! for a week only actually..haha..little pixie fly back to the books and buried her face..
i cried my heart out at 8:36 PM
if anyone could understand what i was thinking and feeling today, i would give them a million bucks. hah..i dont think anyone. little pixie tries to cool down and sits by the pond, watching dragonflies flutter by.
i cried my heart out at 1:42 AM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
Im in a bad mood today, i could snap at anyone anytime. Wonder what my hormones are doing in my body. Im sick and i can't study. I just cant concentrate. I wana go out!! yesterday was supposed to go out with him, but i fell sick. and the plans were cancelled. Had to stay at home and i sort of made him feel more sick by being around me. He was already having a flu and i made him felt worst. I thought he would stay thru the night to accompany me because i was feeling really terrible. Im so afraid that i might run a high fever suddenly in the middle of the night. But he left around 9 plus. he told me that he would come over during the weekends to keep me company. i was really upset that i couldnt go out yesterday and though i was sick, i still had plans about going out today. I dont care because we couldnt celebrate our 10th anniversary on tuesday as he was held up by work. So we decided to make it up during weekends. i knew he was kinda unhappy that i made him felt more sick so i just let him go home without asking him to accompany me.
At night, i was still wondering what i should do tomorrow. Go out for a short while or nearby? I know im crazy but i just dont like to stay at home esp when i had plans. Called him in the morning and he said maybe he was going out with his friend. I don't know why but i got furious. Maybe becos i felt that im sick and he shouldnt go out..yes im selfish. Maybe becos i had plans of going out and he didnt know cos he thought i should be recuperating and thats why he go out with his friend. Maybe i pinned too much hopes when he said he would come and accompany me during the weekends but ended up going out with his friend. Maybe i was hurt that he said he doesnt want to come and see me when i am still feeling sick and dont want to be sick together and he would come to see me when i feel better. Maybe a sick person just wants to have concern when she is feeling really sick and not have someone coming to visit after she got better.
watever,i dont know why i am angry and who i am angry with. I guess im angry with myself for falling sick and thus all these are happening. if i wasnt sick, we would have gone out and my plans wouldnt have been shattered. im always known as not a very understanding gf. Maybe i really am. I am not fit to be in a relationship. I just cant seem to be a good gf. I demand alot of things dont i? I really don't know. but all these are making me feel really unhappy in any relationships. I hate myself alot. i just dont feel like talking to anyone. I need space. I need to make myself feel happier. i cant go on like this forever. They think im torturing them but i feel tortured as well.
Im in a bad mood today, i could snap at anyone anytime. Wonder what my hormones are doing in my body. Im sick and i can't study. I just cant concentrate. I wana go out!! yesterday was supposed to go out with him, but i fell sick. and the plans were cancelled. Had to stay at home and i sort of made him feel more sick by being around me. He was already having a flu and i made him felt worst. I thought he would stay thru the night to accompany me because i was feeling really terrible. Im so afraid that i might run a high fever suddenly in the middle of the night. But he left around 9 plus. he told me that he would come over during the weekends to keep me company. i was really upset that i couldnt go out yesterday and though i was sick, i still had plans about going out today. I dont care because we couldnt celebrate our 10th anniversary on tuesday as he was held up by work. So we decided to make it up during weekends. i knew he was kinda unhappy that i made him felt more sick so i just let him go home without asking him to accompany me.
At night, i was still wondering what i should do tomorrow. Go out for a short while or nearby? I know im crazy but i just dont like to stay at home esp when i had plans. Called him in the morning and he said maybe he was going out with his friend. I don't know why but i got furious. Maybe becos i felt that im sick and he shouldnt go out..yes im selfish. Maybe becos i had plans of going out and he didnt know cos he thought i should be recuperating and thats why he go out with his friend. Maybe i pinned too much hopes when he said he would come and accompany me during the weekends but ended up going out with his friend. Maybe i was hurt that he said he doesnt want to come and see me when i am still feeling sick and dont want to be sick together and he would come to see me when i feel better. Maybe a sick person just wants to have concern when she is feeling really sick and not have someone coming to visit after she got better.
watever,i dont know why i am angry and who i am angry with. I guess im angry with myself for falling sick and thus all these are happening. if i wasnt sick, we would have gone out and my plans wouldnt have been shattered. im always known as not a very understanding gf. Maybe i really am. I am not fit to be in a relationship. I just cant seem to be a good gf. I demand alot of things dont i? I really don't know. but all these are making me feel really unhappy in any relationships. I hate myself alot. i just dont feel like talking to anyone. I need space. I need to make myself feel happier. i cant go on like this forever. They think im torturing them but i feel tortured as well.
i cried my heart out at 1:30 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
im sick today, throat getting itchy and quite a bad cough. pixie need a dosage of medicine. Im not going school today. Gota pay a visit to the doc later on. sob..wasting money again. Betta start on my studies now. pixie says tata for now.
im sick today, throat getting itchy and quite a bad cough. pixie need a dosage of medicine. Im not going school today. Gota pay a visit to the doc later on. sob..wasting money again. Betta start on my studies now. pixie says tata for now.
i cried my heart out at 10:30 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
pixie's feeling sleepy right now but i would enter my blog before i hop on to bed. my bunnie just left not long ago..he was engaged with his work all the while on the comp ever since he stepped into my house. Poor bunnie,so much projects to be done and his proj mates are driving him nuts. Whipped up a simple korean udon mee for my little bunnie. I love to cook for him, especially if he likes to eat them. Makes me feel as if im like his dear wife. Haha. I would love to whip up something for him and just watching him eat makes me feel so contented.
We went to catch 'meet the fockers' at noon..finally..have been wanting to catch this flick for so long. It was nice, hilarious and entertaining. Wouldn't regret watching it, definetly not a cheap flick. The baby just makes me go gaga over him. So cute, so handsome! Love his big blue eyes. Wanna huggie him..nah later my bunnie gets green eyes. The way he asks for milk and poopoo..haha, a genius baby. Jus like my bunnie when he was young. i have already tot of a perfect name for our baby if we ever ended up tying the knots. Not gona expose it man..want it to be special and the one and only name. Only bunnie noes it..right bunnie? hmm but i dont think he really likes the name..haha..its a little french tho
Owells term test starting next mon..i better make sure that i spend my time wisely during the weekends.sighs..that means serious business..no play makes pixie a dull pixie. *slap my hand on the forehead*
Owells, if you have been wondering why i kept using pixie and bunnie, haha..thats jus how i want to be named. winks. for a little privacy u noe.
pixie's feeling sleepy right now but i would enter my blog before i hop on to bed. my bunnie just left not long ago..he was engaged with his work all the while on the comp ever since he stepped into my house. Poor bunnie,so much projects to be done and his proj mates are driving him nuts. Whipped up a simple korean udon mee for my little bunnie. I love to cook for him, especially if he likes to eat them. Makes me feel as if im like his dear wife. Haha. I would love to whip up something for him and just watching him eat makes me feel so contented.
We went to catch 'meet the fockers' at noon..finally..have been wanting to catch this flick for so long. It was nice, hilarious and entertaining. Wouldn't regret watching it, definetly not a cheap flick. The baby just makes me go gaga over him. So cute, so handsome! Love his big blue eyes. Wanna huggie him..nah later my bunnie gets green eyes. The way he asks for milk and poopoo..haha, a genius baby. Jus like my bunnie when he was young. i have already tot of a perfect name for our baby if we ever ended up tying the knots. Not gona expose it man..want it to be special and the one and only name. Only bunnie noes it..right bunnie? hmm but i dont think he really likes the name..haha..its a little french tho
Owells term test starting next mon..i better make sure that i spend my time wisely during the weekends.sighs..that means serious business..no play makes pixie a dull pixie. *slap my hand on the forehead*
Owells, if you have been wondering why i kept using pixie and bunnie, haha..thats jus how i want to be named. winks. for a little privacy u noe.
i cried my heart out at 10:55 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Bloggie..sorry for not writing to you yesterday! I was so caught up in my work! Little pixie had a long day yesterday..trying to rush my design project because today is the deadline. Thank god that the piece that i redo was well received by my design lecturer. It didnt waste my efforts..However due to the tedious night yesterday, im not in a perfect mood today. Felt tired and just wana rest! The proj consulation in the morning went well too, thank god again..
i was happy to have macdonalds for lunch today! It just seems like a treat after a hard day's of work. And to further treat myself for being such a good girl yesterday, I went for retail therapy! Went Esprit to buy a tee and went Fancl to buy my facial products..haha..Popped by Mango and saw their latest collection, however i think i betta buy something from forever 21. I prefer their collections of clothes now though Mango is still not bad! I need to buy new year clothes!! Plus accessories..shoes..bags..HAHA..Im gona shop like a freak two weeks later when my term break finally arrives! Can't believe 4 days later would be my term test week. I haven't started studying yet. Gosh, i better work extra hard later on.
What should i do during the term break besides shopping? Hmm..probably have fun with my bunnie. I guess i better make some plans so that we can make full use of my holidays together. Maybe i should go for a hair cut tomorrow since im kinda free. Its getting out of shape! urgh..
Little pixie goes on a short break today; had enough of design projects! Pixie shall watch tv, munch on fresh fruits and hug my bear to sleep at night. Purrfect!
Bloggie..sorry for not writing to you yesterday! I was so caught up in my work! Little pixie had a long day yesterday..trying to rush my design project because today is the deadline. Thank god that the piece that i redo was well received by my design lecturer. It didnt waste my efforts..However due to the tedious night yesterday, im not in a perfect mood today. Felt tired and just wana rest! The proj consulation in the morning went well too, thank god again..
i was happy to have macdonalds for lunch today! It just seems like a treat after a hard day's of work. And to further treat myself for being such a good girl yesterday, I went for retail therapy! Went Esprit to buy a tee and went Fancl to buy my facial products..haha..Popped by Mango and saw their latest collection, however i think i betta buy something from forever 21. I prefer their collections of clothes now though Mango is still not bad! I need to buy new year clothes!! Plus accessories..shoes..bags..HAHA..Im gona shop like a freak two weeks later when my term break finally arrives! Can't believe 4 days later would be my term test week. I haven't started studying yet. Gosh, i better work extra hard later on.
What should i do during the term break besides shopping? Hmm..probably have fun with my bunnie. I guess i better make some plans so that we can make full use of my holidays together. Maybe i should go for a hair cut tomorrow since im kinda free. Its getting out of shape! urgh..
Little pixie goes on a short break today; had enough of design projects! Pixie shall watch tv, munch on fresh fruits and hug my bear to sleep at night. Purrfect!
i cried my heart out at 6:33 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
im kinda sleepy..hope that i can sleep early and better tonight. Yesterday's sleep was kinda disturbed so im tired today. Still have alot of work to do, research on diabetes and then on wednesday i would have an interview on osteoporosis. Gosh, these diseases really aint easy! So much to know about them. Sch's quite alright today but saw that guy who seems like a pest. Last friday,I walked past him, then he looked at me. Then he came towards me and asked what course and what year i was from. So to be polite, i said 'CST' year 3 and walked away. He appeared minutes after that with his friend looking at me, felt so uncomfortable. I hoped i didnt have to bump into him and guess what, when i open the tutorial door today, there he was. pray that he wouldnt come up and talk to me again.yawnz..still have lotsa work to do. little pixie wants to rest her wings; dont want to overwork..
im kinda sleepy..hope that i can sleep early and better tonight. Yesterday's sleep was kinda disturbed so im tired today. Still have alot of work to do, research on diabetes and then on wednesday i would have an interview on osteoporosis. Gosh, these diseases really aint easy! So much to know about them. Sch's quite alright today but saw that guy who seems like a pest. Last friday,I walked past him, then he looked at me. Then he came towards me and asked what course and what year i was from. So to be polite, i said 'CST' year 3 and walked away. He appeared minutes after that with his friend looking at me, felt so uncomfortable. I hoped i didnt have to bump into him and guess what, when i open the tutorial door today, there he was. pray that he wouldnt come up and talk to me again.yawnz..still have lotsa work to do. little pixie wants to rest her wings; dont want to overwork..
i cried my heart out at 10:22 AM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
O lord, i pray that everything will soon be over. I pray that the wounds will heal soon, or faster. Lead me to the truth and guide me to where there is light. I dont want to stay in darkness forever. Amen.
O lord, i pray that everything will soon be over. I pray that the wounds will heal soon, or faster. Lead me to the truth and guide me to where there is light. I dont want to stay in darkness forever. Amen.
i cried my heart out at 8:40 PM
urgh..wrote such a long blog and it disappears just like that. Wonder if it is not meant to be published. Gota write it again..packed my stuff today at noon and made sure that i didnt leave anything behind. The stuff were heavy and my books were the culprit. Owells..took a cab to and fro(due to the rain and the heavy bags)..cost me a bomb. But never mind, i consoled myself. If i was able to clear everything today, no matter how much money, i will pay. Packing my stuff seems to be a routine for me..but a bad routine.So silly of me, each time i packed, i never learn my lesson. Learnt something new today from my cousin Amy. Felt a little enlightened. Missed the memorial service at expo. Planned to go with rachel and pray together with the crowd but it only starts at 5pm and i had to be at home to do my sewing. If only it started in the noon as i was so near expo. Cancelled the plan and watched it at home. Felt sad,cant be much of a help..felt useless but no point thinking this way. Do something. half of the day is gone and school starts tomorrow again. Weekends pass really fast..maybe i should go for coffee later..better go ring up my fren now.
Enlightened; it will be over.
i cried my heart out at 6:15 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Little pixie hates sunday..its the most boring day every week. And today feels like sunday! Urghs.woke up kinda late, ate and did some housework n tutorial.Had an afternoon nap and had conversations with bunnie thru sms.Ended not so well..kinda bad actually. But what can i do?i cant do anything anymore. Don't have the mood to do any work today! Gota rush tomorrow i guess. little pixie is so stressed..sob (no more bunnie anymore)
Little pixie hates sunday..its the most boring day every week. And today feels like sunday! Urghs.woke up kinda late, ate and did some housework n tutorial.Had an afternoon nap and had conversations with bunnie thru sms.Ended not so well..kinda bad actually. But what can i do?i cant do anything anymore. Don't have the mood to do any work today! Gota rush tomorrow i guess. little pixie is so stressed..sob (no more bunnie anymore)
i cried my heart out at 9:58 PM
Been dying to cut my hair, not short though, just something new. Kinda lazy to change and go out jus for a hair cut. But soon i guess..theres pretty much stuff that i havent done yet. 2 projects and my design project!!! I have to bring a halt to it because i dont have the materials..Wed is the deadline..sighs. Term tests coming in a week's time. Study hard stella..its my final year, im so glad. Should i go for a coffee break later? owells..lets see how my work progress first. but now im kinda sleepy and the dark clouds are gathering near my place, which suggests a good time to have a nap. *knocks myself off*
i cried my heart out at 3:40 PM
1. Be happy
2. Spend time with my family & dear ones
3. Slurge less
4. Save money and donate money
5. Go to church, pray every single night
6. Create less problems for myself
7. Learn driving & get a license
8. Holiday in Melbourne & New Zealand
9. Hang out with my friends
10. Complain less; count my blessings
11. Love and not hate
12. Think maturely
13. Graduate with satisfaction results
14. Love, be loved
15. Cherish my youth
i cried my heart out at 2:16 PM
Couldnt get to sleep yesterday night and still felt like lazing on the bed,the weather's so cool today. But i guess i better wake up and do some stuff and have a nap later. Was thinking about alot of things. The good stuff and the bad stuff. Though we went through ample bad ordeals, i tend to remember the good stuff more often. We did alot of memorable stuff together, going to wild wild wet, suntanning at his uncle's place, watching 'Brotherhood' with my teddie, flying a mini kite at the open field near his house, studying together at his place and gota have us separated otherwise we would be distracted, going to sentosa waiting for him to end his competition while i sat at delifrance doing my work,chalet with jon at changi, sitting on the window rill of his room looking for stars, cooking for him to eat, having a mini bbq at his house and having a mini steamboat at my house,making his room into a mini theatre and he was getting excited like a little boy, and yeah, never forgotten he made me walk such a long distance from his house to east coast and back home, i was pouting like a little girl. So many things that we have done together but i always felt that there are more stuff left undone that i would wanna do with him. So many places that i wana go with him and so many ideas of spending time together. Probably that's the reason why i always hang on to it no matter how rocky it gets.
i cried my heart out at 11:30 AM
Friday, January 07, 2005
Its a night to remember, gosh itz simply too good to be true. So beautiful,so unforgettable..I must thank the person for leading us there, otherwise we would be kept in the dark forever. Also the treats, felt so guilty about it. Pls let us treat you the next time. Haha.Gotta make frequent trips man! Can't wait to tell ceres and jason about it and we could make it a buddies nite. How bout chinese new year? nah i guess its too long a wait, rachel probably would head down there next week. School's quite hectic today but im glad that my sis treated me to japanese food todae. Gona strike the first prize becos of that..haha..you know once in a blue moon thingy. And it was rather relaxing for the whole nite. Gona be hardworking tomorrow, do some household chores, rush my sewing project (im dead..no inspiration) and spend some time with my parents over dinner. Havent been accompanying them much, aint i a bad pixie?hmm..owells..i gota go bathe now. Shall pen down stuff tomorrow. Nitez
Its a night to remember, gosh itz simply too good to be true. So beautiful,so unforgettable..I must thank the person for leading us there, otherwise we would be kept in the dark forever. Also the treats, felt so guilty about it. Pls let us treat you the next time. Haha.Gotta make frequent trips man! Can't wait to tell ceres and jason about it and we could make it a buddies nite. How bout chinese new year? nah i guess its too long a wait, rachel probably would head down there next week. School's quite hectic today but im glad that my sis treated me to japanese food todae. Gona strike the first prize becos of that..haha..you know once in a blue moon thingy. And it was rather relaxing for the whole nite. Gona be hardworking tomorrow, do some household chores, rush my sewing project (im dead..no inspiration) and spend some time with my parents over dinner. Havent been accompanying them much, aint i a bad pixie?hmm..owells..i gota go bathe now. Shall pen down stuff tomorrow. Nitez
i cried my heart out at 7:29 AM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
walk down memory lane with me - 2005
walk down memory lane with me - 2005
i cried my heart out at 7:23 AM
walk down memory lane with ME - 2004
i cried my heart out at 7:12 AM
walk down memory lane with ME - 2003
i cried my heart out at 7:11 AM
my first card print ever! dearest keepsake.
i cried my heart out at 4:16 AM
sheraton hotel..xmas bash 2004
i cried my heart out at 4:14 AM
yikes i found my cutie pie pix!
i cried my heart out at 4:12 AM
School hrs is pretty short today, lucky me! Had a dispute with a bunnie again. He wouldn't bother bout me, guess he thinks what he did was alright. What can i say if he thinks im wrong for getting the wrong vibes. never mind, come what may. Posted some pics, getting excited to put up more. Hope to master the skill of creating my own designed blog..someone teach me please!! Still hearing so much about the tsunami on the news..hope to hear the word 'survivor' instead of the word repetition 'victims'. I must discipline myself to pray before i go to sleep every nite.
My goals currently:
1)Donate more cash to red cross
2)Help out at any country's embassy
3)Study for my term tests
4)Buy less luxury stuff, give the poor
1)Donate more cash to red cross
2)Help out at any country's embassy
3)Study for my term tests
4)Buy less luxury stuff, give the poor
i cried my heart out at 3:52 AM
Cheeze! before 2005 rumbles in..
i cried my heart out at 3:40 AM
do we look compatible? hehe
i cried my heart out at 3:38 AM
he will always be my bunnie
i cried my heart out at 3:34 AM
Lets celebrate!
i cried my heart out at 3:32 AM
my best buddie - Rachel
i cried my heart out at 3:27 AM
Lets party girls!
i cried my heart out at 3:21 AM