Friday, September 30, 2005
Wow, i've totally lost track of time and did not know that i haven't been bloggin for days. But owells, it's boring anyway..as long as it's Stella who is bloggin, its borin, so in other words, i'm trying to put across the message 'don't read!' except for those who are likeable.
It's finally friday! And i spent the whole night unpacking my stuff in my room. It's in sucha mess after i moved all the stuff back from hostel. There goes my freaky friday. *Wails* ..Plans for tommorow? I don't know..
Anyway, i want to kill lotsa birds with one stone by annoucing to all my friends, not fiends that i have decided to change my name. Yup, some of my friends knew about it already. And i would like to change it before i start teaching. Why? Many of you may ask. Hmm, i really hope that i'm not 'Stella' anymore. By givin me a fresh new name, i hope to start off as a new person. U are absolutely right to argue that i need not change my name just because i want to gain a new self, that's where my second reason comes into place. I hate it when people always mispronounced my name. Also, i do not want a name that my students have the opportunities to make fun of. That's it. I'm not explaining myself further.
I do adore my name, STELLA. Especially the meaning of my name and it's sad to part with it. But i guess, it's time to erase it. Certainly changing a name doesn't mean changing or improving one's luck but i do it for practical reasons. I just hope that i will remain the smile i have, each time i look up in the sky, searching for a star (myself). Sorry sis, haha, I can't be beside the moon anymore. (Well, if you are scratching your head, 'moon' is the meaning of my sister's name)What do you think? Mummy will be upset if she know that i wanna change a name that i was born with. Sigh. Maybe she wouldn't, she is kinda open minded bout such things yea.
And nope, i am not gonna disclose the new name here. I guess if i really had it changed, i'm still fine with all of you calling me Stella, well its gonna be a little awkward to call me differently huh. So no worries yea. It's kinda weird adjusting to a new name. :)
I'm baffled that it's the end of the month of September. Which means that i've been single for half a year, 6 months! For what i've remembered, i have never been single for this long after each of my r/s. It's neither good nor bad. It just makes me realize that i'm someone who can be alone. And i'm not eagerly searching. Audreay loves to tell me 'Find a rich man and marry!' but i love to argue by saying 'Asking me to find a rich man, might as well i earn my own money, it is so much better and easier.' Why do i need to 'look' for someone to support me when i'm capable of doing so. Look no further..it's inside me. Haha.
Pen down my thoughts again whilst i have the spare time. Zzzzz.
Wow, i've totally lost track of time and did not know that i haven't been bloggin for days. But owells, it's boring anyway..as long as it's Stella who is bloggin, its borin, so in other words, i'm trying to put across the message 'don't read!' except for those who are likeable.
It's finally friday! And i spent the whole night unpacking my stuff in my room. It's in sucha mess after i moved all the stuff back from hostel. There goes my freaky friday. *Wails* ..Plans for tommorow? I don't know..
Anyway, i want to kill lotsa birds with one stone by annoucing to all my friends, not fiends that i have decided to change my name. Yup, some of my friends knew about it already. And i would like to change it before i start teaching. Why? Many of you may ask. Hmm, i really hope that i'm not 'Stella' anymore. By givin me a fresh new name, i hope to start off as a new person. U are absolutely right to argue that i need not change my name just because i want to gain a new self, that's where my second reason comes into place. I hate it when people always mispronounced my name. Also, i do not want a name that my students have the opportunities to make fun of. That's it. I'm not explaining myself further.
I do adore my name, STELLA. Especially the meaning of my name and it's sad to part with it. But i guess, it's time to erase it. Certainly changing a name doesn't mean changing or improving one's luck but i do it for practical reasons. I just hope that i will remain the smile i have, each time i look up in the sky, searching for a star (myself). Sorry sis, haha, I can't be beside the moon anymore. (Well, if you are scratching your head, 'moon' is the meaning of my sister's name)What do you think? Mummy will be upset if she know that i wanna change a name that i was born with. Sigh. Maybe she wouldn't, she is kinda open minded bout such things yea.
And nope, i am not gonna disclose the new name here. I guess if i really had it changed, i'm still fine with all of you calling me Stella, well its gonna be a little awkward to call me differently huh. So no worries yea. It's kinda weird adjusting to a new name. :)
I'm baffled that it's the end of the month of September. Which means that i've been single for half a year, 6 months! For what i've remembered, i have never been single for this long after each of my r/s. It's neither good nor bad. It just makes me realize that i'm someone who can be alone. And i'm not eagerly searching. Audreay loves to tell me 'Find a rich man and marry!' but i love to argue by saying 'Asking me to find a rich man, might as well i earn my own money, it is so much better and easier.' Why do i need to 'look' for someone to support me when i'm capable of doing so. Look no further..it's inside me. Haha.
Pen down my thoughts again whilst i have the spare time. Zzzzz.
i cried my heart out at 8:40 AM
Monday, September 26, 2005
Today is an unlucky day for me for those who know what happened. Sigh.
So i decided to relax and went to a spa boutique at wheellock place to rejuvenate. It did work for me. My senses were revived. If not, i will be brain dead for the upcoming weeks.
If only i have the luxury of spa treats every week. Hmm, but i'm not a princess & money shouldn't be splurged like that. I rather spend money in Japan. It's saving time again, it seemed that i'm always saving my money to be spent on my travel expenses. Which is no good, cos the money that is supposedly saved, is spent!
Amy said that two months will come in a jiffy & we will be able to fly soon. Well perhaps, but i guess when it's torturous having so much assignments due, i'm buried down under & time is crawling like a snail. Sheesh. If only you can understand what i'm thinking, i have a prenomition that i'll have to see a psychologist soon.
My grey matter or should i call it my pea brain is limited. It has been used up, a mental block is what i'm experiencing in NIE. Cos too much thoughts and efforts have been placed for each assignment til i think i have used up my whole life of ideas & creativity. It's true. I'm not lamenting. Especially the dry subjects like DLK & psychology. Spare me from it. I'm prepared to go for an acupressure soon. I'm exhausted... i'm sorry if i'm stoning in school so much girls, or really cant absorb some stuff. It just can't go in if u know what i mean..Pat on your back too. Prepare to see me go crazy tml...
Today is an unlucky day for me for those who know what happened. Sigh.
So i decided to relax and went to a spa boutique at wheellock place to rejuvenate. It did work for me. My senses were revived. If not, i will be brain dead for the upcoming weeks.
If only i have the luxury of spa treats every week. Hmm, but i'm not a princess & money shouldn't be splurged like that. I rather spend money in Japan. It's saving time again, it seemed that i'm always saving my money to be spent on my travel expenses. Which is no good, cos the money that is supposedly saved, is spent!
Amy said that two months will come in a jiffy & we will be able to fly soon. Well perhaps, but i guess when it's torturous having so much assignments due, i'm buried down under & time is crawling like a snail. Sheesh. If only you can understand what i'm thinking, i have a prenomition that i'll have to see a psychologist soon.
My grey matter or should i call it my pea brain is limited. It has been used up, a mental block is what i'm experiencing in NIE. Cos too much thoughts and efforts have been placed for each assignment til i think i have used up my whole life of ideas & creativity. It's true. I'm not lamenting. Especially the dry subjects like DLK & psychology. Spare me from it. I'm prepared to go for an acupressure soon. I'm exhausted... i'm sorry if i'm stoning in school so much girls, or really cant absorb some stuff. It just can't go in if u know what i mean..Pat on your back too. Prepare to see me go crazy tml...
i cried my heart out at 7:36 AM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
I will have to go on a diet plan immediately. Stress period is here.
I'm addicted to chocolates (Esp Kinder bueno, Ferror rocher, Kit kat, Crunch & White chocolates), then i'm craving for Coca Cola, esp Vanilla coke EVERYDAY. And for the past few days, i'm gorging down Macdonald's full meal for supper. I ate 6 bars of kit kat within 2 hours yesterday.
Yeap, when you see me doing that, you know i'm S..T..R..E..S..S.. Maybe next time in my office, i will have a hotline quick dial-up to Macdonald's delivery and a mini fridge bar that holds treasures of chocolate bars. It's so typical of me when i start munching a bar of chocolate, i know i'm screwed up in the tiny grey matter of mine.
Its 25th September. 2 months more of hard work. It still seemed pretty long. How long more can i endure til i get to soak myself in the hot tub of natural hot spring water admist the natual mountains & snow. This is my 'motivator'. I'll have to get through this period. Nothing in life comes free & i'll have to work hard before i start enjoying life. Right now, i'll have to think of ways to have therapeutic stress reliever to get through these sloughed days.
I will have to go on a diet plan immediately. Stress period is here.
I'm addicted to chocolates (Esp Kinder bueno, Ferror rocher, Kit kat, Crunch & White chocolates), then i'm craving for Coca Cola, esp Vanilla coke EVERYDAY. And for the past few days, i'm gorging down Macdonald's full meal for supper. I ate 6 bars of kit kat within 2 hours yesterday.
Yeap, when you see me doing that, you know i'm S..T..R..E..S..S.. Maybe next time in my office, i will have a hotline quick dial-up to Macdonald's delivery and a mini fridge bar that holds treasures of chocolate bars. It's so typical of me when i start munching a bar of chocolate, i know i'm screwed up in the tiny grey matter of mine.
Its 25th September. 2 months more of hard work. It still seemed pretty long. How long more can i endure til i get to soak myself in the hot tub of natural hot spring water admist the natual mountains & snow. This is my 'motivator'. I'll have to get through this period. Nothing in life comes free & i'll have to work hard before i start enjoying life. Right now, i'll have to think of ways to have therapeutic stress reliever to get through these sloughed days.
i cried my heart out at 6:23 AM
Onechan, Hakone spa, the website you sent me is really cute! I wanna go and Amy is dying to go...We want to go hot spring! Okay, lets stay at this spa amusement park then! Thumbs up!
i cried my heart out at 6:11 AM
Me & deary cousin Amy..Romancing by the beach!
i cried my heart out at 5:47 AM
This is better. Not as blur as the other pic & gotta brightened that one.
i cried my heart out at 5:45 AM
The four musketeers. Left: Stella, Amy, Estee, Sitting down: Birthday gal, Agnes!
i cried my heart out at 5:40 AM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
My cousin, Agnes 24th Birthday chalet at East Coast! Happy belated Birthday girlie!
It has really been a long time ever since i step into East Coast Costa Sands. Its very nostalgic. My birthdays were held there every year during Sec school and i had fantastic and crazy fun with my friends. Playing stupid games, listening to horror stories, sleepless nights & one bunch of people walking to the seaside jumping on one another..Those were the days..Can it come back to me?
We had lotsa variety of food to eat. Haha. And the best part for me, was the Bbq bacon. Mmmm..that's my favourite. And yes its salty & oily but yet its hard to resist.
Detox tommorow. Gorge all i want today. I'm peeling like a snake. It's so obvious and Amy was trying to help me peel off all the dead skin on my back. Phew. It's horrible, ugh! I better watch out the next time i go tanning. I'm pretty dark and everyone in school repeated 'Wow, Stella your bikini very obvious' Sigh, its contrasting colour on my body.
No work for me this weekends. I have to PLAY. i need to REST. Thats it!
A big THANK YOU to you know who, that always never fail to pick me up & kind- heartedly drive to me the places that i wanna go, even last minute. Esp now that i have long distances to travel to everywhere, it has made my life less stressful. Aprreciated lots!
My cousin, Agnes 24th Birthday chalet at East Coast! Happy belated Birthday girlie!
It has really been a long time ever since i step into East Coast Costa Sands. Its very nostalgic. My birthdays were held there every year during Sec school and i had fantastic and crazy fun with my friends. Playing stupid games, listening to horror stories, sleepless nights & one bunch of people walking to the seaside jumping on one another..Those were the days..Can it come back to me?
We had lotsa variety of food to eat. Haha. And the best part for me, was the Bbq bacon. Mmmm..that's my favourite. And yes its salty & oily but yet its hard to resist.
Detox tommorow. Gorge all i want today. I'm peeling like a snake. It's so obvious and Amy was trying to help me peel off all the dead skin on my back. Phew. It's horrible, ugh! I better watch out the next time i go tanning. I'm pretty dark and everyone in school repeated 'Wow, Stella your bikini very obvious' Sigh, its contrasting colour on my body.
No work for me this weekends. I have to PLAY. i need to REST. Thats it!
A big THANK YOU to you know who, that always never fail to pick me up & kind- heartedly drive to me the places that i wanna go, even last minute. Esp now that i have long distances to travel to everywhere, it has made my life less stressful. Aprreciated lots!
i cried my heart out at 6:45 AM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Chocolate is super hyperactive today...Brrrr...i can't hold her down.
Really naughty. Scolded her countless times & she don't listen. Can't allow her to be a spoilt doggie. She aint afraid of anyone anymore.
She is running around the house going crazy jumping at her own pillow, biting her own tail and running in circles just to find her tail..pouncing at people..sigh..the house is in a mess. CHOCOLATE!!!
Many a times i would call the wrong name & called her HERSHEYS!!!! I don't know why!! Haha. I betcha i love hershey's chocolate that's why. I wonder why i don't call her Cadbury..hehe..chocolate maybe need 'chocolates' to tame her down.
Chocolate is super hyperactive today...Brrrr...i can't hold her down.
Really naughty. Scolded her countless times & she don't listen. Can't allow her to be a spoilt doggie. She aint afraid of anyone anymore.
She is running around the house going crazy jumping at her own pillow, biting her own tail and running in circles just to find her tail..pouncing at people..sigh..the house is in a mess. CHOCOLATE!!!
Many a times i would call the wrong name & called her HERSHEYS!!!! I don't know why!! Haha. I betcha i love hershey's chocolate that's why. I wonder why i don't call her Cadbury..hehe..chocolate maybe need 'chocolates' to tame her down.
i cried my heart out at 5:43 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Being a teacher never seems to be easy. I truly understood after being in NIE.
Its gonna be worst out there, in a school.
What does teachers have to do? TEACH? nope, fat hope.
Teachers have to plan what to teach, find what to teach, learn how to teach, care for students, motivate students, learn how to cope with students with disabilities, learn how to teach a class of 40 with 40 different personalities and learning abilities, think of new ideas and personalized the subject to capture the student's interest and attention, communicate with students, communicate with their parents, think of ways to discipline students, handle mischevious students..it just goes down the list. Unless u are a teacher, you never know the process besides just delivering in front of a class
A professor said 'Welcome to the most difficult and challenging profession in the world'. No qualms. Changing lives of our students. Making a difference in their lives. Noble huh.
Mental breakdown. Its a matter of time.
At least, we appreciate teachers better now.
Being a teacher never seems to be easy. I truly understood after being in NIE.
Its gonna be worst out there, in a school.
What does teachers have to do? TEACH? nope, fat hope.
Teachers have to plan what to teach, find what to teach, learn how to teach, care for students, motivate students, learn how to cope with students with disabilities, learn how to teach a class of 40 with 40 different personalities and learning abilities, think of new ideas and personalized the subject to capture the student's interest and attention, communicate with students, communicate with their parents, think of ways to discipline students, handle mischevious students..it just goes down the list. Unless u are a teacher, you never know the process besides just delivering in front of a class
A professor said 'Welcome to the most difficult and challenging profession in the world'. No qualms. Changing lives of our students. Making a difference in their lives. Noble huh.
Mental breakdown. Its a matter of time.
At least, we appreciate teachers better now.
i cried my heart out at 4:32 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
i hate tuesday. I'm dead beat. 8.30am to 7.30pm in school. Just kill me.
i hate tuesday. I'm dead beat. 8.30am to 7.30pm in school. Just kill me.
i cried my heart out at 8:31 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Awesome scenery
Awesome scenery
i cried my heart out at 6:37 AM
beautiful backdrop
i cried my heart out at 5:54 AM
*smiles* stress goes away
i cried my heart out at 5:51 AM
Baby Zoe slurping her spaghetti! Cutie pie!
i cried my heart out at 5:36 AM
Baby zoe & her dad & Me. Oops i wasn't looking at the camera.
i cried my heart out at 5:32 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Tears drop. Watching the Love of the Aegan Sea. Touched. I love this show..too bad its the last episode.
At night: Went down to Holland V to chill out at a nice cosy tea cafe where you sit on the floor and lean against the window with huge cushions, overlooking the night scenes & chit-chatting. It was relatively inexpensive & food was to my liking. Thanks boy for picking me up and driving all the way to ulu pandan & back hm! Finally i've got a chance to rest. I have been doing work since last sat til wed afternoon.
i guess everyone is stressed up. Rufhie, beep or call me if you need help with collation okay. I know its not easy collating 100 over comments from everyone. I hope you won't breakdown. I emphatize with you for the extra workload esp when we have so much to complete. I'll help u, what are buddies for! =)
Tears drop. Watching the Love of the Aegan Sea. Touched. I love this show..too bad its the last episode.
At night: Went down to Holland V to chill out at a nice cosy tea cafe where you sit on the floor and lean against the window with huge cushions, overlooking the night scenes & chit-chatting. It was relatively inexpensive & food was to my liking. Thanks boy for picking me up and driving all the way to ulu pandan & back hm! Finally i've got a chance to rest. I have been doing work since last sat til wed afternoon.
i guess everyone is stressed up. Rufhie, beep or call me if you need help with collation okay. I know its not easy collating 100 over comments from everyone. I hope you won't breakdown. I emphatize with you for the extra workload esp when we have so much to complete. I'll help u, what are buddies for! =)
i cried my heart out at 5:28 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
It was a pretty fruitful day..
Went to Rendezvous hotel for a rendezvous..hahaha..no, intercontinental buffet actually. Yummy, i had a lion's share of garden salad topped with generous servings of alfafa sprouts, fruit rojak, sashimi, sushi, cold soba, crayfish etc etc..
Afterwhich, went over to my hostel to clear some of my stuff to lighten the load when i officially move off few weeks later. Then headed down to a country club, sat by the pool trying to absorb some sunlight while reading my japanese books. Golf after that. Mistaken for a japanese. Prob the way i dress. My japanese uncle said that my dressing looks like the japanese. Neh. I don't agree. Hehehe. Again, had another intercontinental buffet at the country club. Gee, sinful day.
Went back, had the urge to bake cookies thou. So i carried on with the idea and baked few large trays of almond & chocolate chip cookies. Meant to be given away. Chocolate, the little doggie was walking around me while i was measuring the ingredients and busy shaping the cookies. Haha. boy, little doggie are u tempted by the aroma? u can have your doggie biscuits k.
It was a pretty fruitful day..
Went to Rendezvous hotel for a rendezvous..hahaha..no, intercontinental buffet actually. Yummy, i had a lion's share of garden salad topped with generous servings of alfafa sprouts, fruit rojak, sashimi, sushi, cold soba, crayfish etc etc..
Afterwhich, went over to my hostel to clear some of my stuff to lighten the load when i officially move off few weeks later. Then headed down to a country club, sat by the pool trying to absorb some sunlight while reading my japanese books. Golf after that. Mistaken for a japanese. Prob the way i dress. My japanese uncle said that my dressing looks like the japanese. Neh. I don't agree. Hehehe. Again, had another intercontinental buffet at the country club. Gee, sinful day.
Went back, had the urge to bake cookies thou. So i carried on with the idea and baked few large trays of almond & chocolate chip cookies. Meant to be given away. Chocolate, the little doggie was walking around me while i was measuring the ingredients and busy shaping the cookies. Haha. boy, little doggie are u tempted by the aroma? u can have your doggie biscuits k.
i cried my heart out at 8:30 PM
wtf..flung my stupid DLK assignment. Grrr...i hate DLK, i dislike the teacher. Piss, gotta re-do wasting my precious time! I'm beginning to think that repeating the module is a possibility. I just hate DLK, she makes me confuse & wanna sleep..yawns. i seldom flung stuff, surprising i'll flung this. BAKA. Just lamenting. Don't bother.
i cried my heart out at 7:55 PM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
While flippin thru travel books on Japan, it came across to me 'I never knew Japan is so huge seriously' Also, i discovered, if you do not know japanese, it will be great pains if you are travelling free & easy.
The railway lines they have are amazing. They have too many different lines & make it really confusing. We are going to have troubles finding our way. My sister has warned me that it will be nerve-wrecking taking the trains.
One month to get use & learn. Hopefully by the first week, i'll be able to move about easily & the rest of the weeks will be better. Expensive expensive expensive. The only word to describe the train tickets. A japan rail pass that is considered cheap for vistors travelling around for 7 days cost approx 30000 yen. $450 converted to sing. It's many times much more expensive than singapore. Travelling on trains in a week could only cost you ard $20 bucks. Wow.
We are planning our itinerary together soon as we have to know how to get there. Cos there are other states in Japan we want to visit like Yokohama, Asakusa etc. Mount Fuji, Tokyo Tower, Tokyo Disneyland are situtated quite far from each other. Needless to say, we have to go on different days.
It spurred me for a moment. Maybe i could stay in Japan & be an expat like my sister. For one or two years, gain an experience. Hmm..sounds like i'm having a crazy idea or dream again? Well, it could be possible if my heart walks closely with it. I'll see how much i like Japan during my trip. I'll have to weigh which dream would be more realistic (the dream that i'm having that most of you know but don't mention openly in my bloggie) or be an expat. Gimme some of your views.
While flippin thru travel books on Japan, it came across to me 'I never knew Japan is so huge seriously' Also, i discovered, if you do not know japanese, it will be great pains if you are travelling free & easy.
The railway lines they have are amazing. They have too many different lines & make it really confusing. We are going to have troubles finding our way. My sister has warned me that it will be nerve-wrecking taking the trains.
One month to get use & learn. Hopefully by the first week, i'll be able to move about easily & the rest of the weeks will be better. Expensive expensive expensive. The only word to describe the train tickets. A japan rail pass that is considered cheap for vistors travelling around for 7 days cost approx 30000 yen. $450 converted to sing. It's many times much more expensive than singapore. Travelling on trains in a week could only cost you ard $20 bucks. Wow.
We are planning our itinerary together soon as we have to know how to get there. Cos there are other states in Japan we want to visit like Yokohama, Asakusa etc. Mount Fuji, Tokyo Tower, Tokyo Disneyland are situtated quite far from each other. Needless to say, we have to go on different days.
It spurred me for a moment. Maybe i could stay in Japan & be an expat like my sister. For one or two years, gain an experience. Hmm..sounds like i'm having a crazy idea or dream again? Well, it could be possible if my heart walks closely with it. I'll see how much i like Japan during my trip. I'll have to weigh which dream would be more realistic (the dream that i'm having that most of you know but don't mention openly in my bloggie) or be an expat. Gimme some of your views.
i cried my heart out at 5:35 PM
simply no reason to envy me...
I'm just someone with lots of 'WANTS' in life. Somehow or rather the WANTS in my life has become a NEED. Therefore, when the word 'prioritize' comes into the picture, i have too many 'priorities' trying to squeeze up to the no. 1 position. It frustrates me thou, knowing that i have so much things i wanna accomplish, but not knowing which is more important.
Maybe i am different from the rest. Maybe i am greedy. But the main reason that sparks me to chase after what i need is simply because 'I feel that my life is short.' Hontou ni.
Don't think of me as a rich girl, a princess, a tai-tai (i'm still given this name by many even after we graduated from TP & advanced to NIE) This nick really doesn't suit me. I don't have a rich husband that splurges his hard-earned money on me. I don't play mahjong & buy Louis Vuitton. Instead i'm a independant lady that spends my own dough. Think of me as a dream-catcher.
I don't lead a HI-LIFE by buying branded goods (they simply don't interest me), going for hi-tea at reputable hotels (very seldom), desiring for a diamond ring (diamonds ain't my best friend), gossiping & play mahjong (first of all, i'm not someone who likes to gossip & i'm a klutz at gambling). Call me a new-age woman instead.
I lead a HI-LIFE by knowing what i want & catching after my dreams with a butterfly net. Whether or not the 'wants' are 'needs', i do make sure that they become something i desire desperately for. Maslow Hierarchy stated that people must attain their needs first in order to think of what they want. I do things that make me happy. I'll do whatever it takes to make me happy. Even if it means spending beyond limits, if it's worth it, go for it & the experience will cost more than what it cost you, cos it becomes 'priceless'.
Yea, i'm a small little petite girl who looks like a 'to-fu', but i have big dreams for myself. Dreams that people think it's hard to acheive or different from others. It's alright, i don't mind being different. I'm a 22 that always get mistaken for 18, but hey, looking young is my best assets. And i do think like a 22 even if people disagree.
Those of u i know have priorities for marriage, studies, relationships etc. Me? I have priorities for all aspects. But knowing me, i'm not as lucky as you are in some aspects. So i'm searching for my happiness in other areas, which u shouldn't really envy. I envy you.
Even when my trip to tokyo seems to come true, i still have many other dreams lining up to be fufilled. It's not so simple that when one dream comes alive, i can lay back on my couch & shake my legs. I'm still running..running for the next dream
i cried my heart out at 3:53 PM
A letter to my sister.
Onechan, buchan desu.
Onechan,genki? Pipi wa saikin do?
buchan maji-de nihon e ikimasu. Yatta!!! Hai..Yokatte ne? shiawase. Onechan to pipi ga ureshii desu ka?
Ja, okasan to jiajun mo nihon e ikimasu. san-nin desu. Ee..
nanoka ju-ni-gatsu kara ni-juu shichi nichi ju-ni-gatsu made desu. sore-de ii?
Okkee. buchan sugoku ni nihon e ikimasu. nihon hikoki (JAL) de ikimasu. Ureshii yo! Eto, chotto yasui ne,singaporu doru. odoroita!
atashi wa hayaku yasumi maji-de ga hoshii desu.
pipi mo ureshii? buchan mai nichi nihon-go ni benkyoshimasu. Buchan gambatte. Ima pipi no nihon-go wa jyozu dane. ii dana.
Bai Bai pipi.
Onechan hayaku meru o suru. Ja. pipi-ni yoroshiku-ne.
i cried my heart out at 1:39 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
Yatta! Yatta! Yatta! My air-ticket to Japan has been BOUGHT!
And the more exciting part, i am taking JAPANESE AIRLINES! My fave airlines of all...JAL! Yokatta ne! Muacks muacks..
And and and...the most exciting news, i convinced my cousin to go Japan with me! And her heart was bought over by my description of fun we are gonna have there & agreed immediately!So.. we bought two air-tixs today!
Ooh..getting to know my sister's friends and going out in a group to eat, play, club, K'ok, fireworks, spa, shopping, sightseeing & travelling to other states just makes me so impatient! It will be my first time celebrating a WHITE XMAS in another country! My heart has already flown to Japan.
No one has ever said 'Japan is a cheap country'. In fact, everyone including the rich people that i know of acknowledge Japan as a super expensive country. A simple lunch for two consisting of maybe normal bento could be about $50. A small box of chocolates is $20++. A cheap bath towel costs $15. I cannot imagine the taxi rides..the shopping..the restaurants..the shinkansen (bullet trains). Heart racing yea.
My cousin called and we were screaming excitedly. The must-go Harajuku, Shinjuku, Ginza, Shibuya, Tokyo Disneyland, Hello kitty world, Tokyo tower, Rainbow bridge, snowboarding, onsen, beautiful sceneries, and most importantly to me, SPEAKING japanese to the natives!!
My parents are flying to Taiwan instead & will only go to Japan next year. Gee, i wish i can go taiwan too. I wanna go to the newly build 101 shopping centre & xi men ding. Perhaps next time. If i don't choose to go back to Toronto & Vancouver, it may come true next year.
I'm back in my own nest today. When i got home, big surprise to see Osim iSqueeze and ipamper in the living room! I have been dying to have that! I will indulge in them later..
I thought of chilling at night, but i heard a 'chilling' news that in Orchard, that a woman's body parts were found & the police doesn't know the motive of the murder. It's such an unruly & humaneless act. God bless the safety of people. Amen.
Doing the things i wanna do,having the things i wanna have.Even so, nobody should envy me. It's main superficial. U don't know what i'm thinking, reacting & feeling & never would. Don't try to understand me.
I'm just me. A star that dims the light & not to be seen. If it's meant to be what it is suppose to be, should i walk gracefully & think it is yet to be.
for all you know, life might just be out to ridicule me
Yatta! Yatta! Yatta! My air-ticket to Japan has been BOUGHT!
And the more exciting part, i am taking JAPANESE AIRLINES! My fave airlines of all...JAL! Yokatta ne! Muacks muacks..
And and and...the most exciting news, i convinced my cousin to go Japan with me! And her heart was bought over by my description of fun we are gonna have there & agreed immediately!So.. we bought two air-tixs today!
Ooh..getting to know my sister's friends and going out in a group to eat, play, club, K'ok, fireworks, spa, shopping, sightseeing & travelling to other states just makes me so impatient! It will be my first time celebrating a WHITE XMAS in another country! My heart has already flown to Japan.
No one has ever said 'Japan is a cheap country'. In fact, everyone including the rich people that i know of acknowledge Japan as a super expensive country. A simple lunch for two consisting of maybe normal bento could be about $50. A small box of chocolates is $20++. A cheap bath towel costs $15. I cannot imagine the taxi rides..the shopping..the restaurants..the shinkansen (bullet trains). Heart racing yea.
My cousin called and we were screaming excitedly. The must-go Harajuku, Shinjuku, Ginza, Shibuya, Tokyo Disneyland, Hello kitty world, Tokyo tower, Rainbow bridge, snowboarding, onsen, beautiful sceneries, and most importantly to me, SPEAKING japanese to the natives!!
My parents are flying to Taiwan instead & will only go to Japan next year. Gee, i wish i can go taiwan too. I wanna go to the newly build 101 shopping centre & xi men ding. Perhaps next time. If i don't choose to go back to Toronto & Vancouver, it may come true next year.
I'm back in my own nest today. When i got home, big surprise to see Osim iSqueeze and ipamper in the living room! I have been dying to have that! I will indulge in them later..
I thought of chilling at night, but i heard a 'chilling' news that in Orchard, that a woman's body parts were found & the police doesn't know the motive of the murder. It's such an unruly & humaneless act. God bless the safety of people. Amen.
Doing the things i wanna do,having the things i wanna have.Even so, nobody should envy me. It's main superficial. U don't know what i'm thinking, reacting & feeling & never would. Don't try to understand me.
I'm just me. A star that dims the light & not to be seen. If it's meant to be what it is suppose to be, should i walk gracefully & think it is yet to be.
for all you know, life might just be out to ridicule me
i cried my heart out at 10:03 PM
something i was pondering:
should i stop bloggin? should i really allow people to read bout my life story, either to people who likes or hate me?
personally, i don't like to blog hop..even my good friends bloggies are sometimes neglected by me & they know it. Well, the main reason..i just don't hop around lah. Gomen ne.
is it weird to let people know what u are doing? what you are thinking? people who can't wait to see you dead & when u are agonizing, they are laughing their heads off & cursing you. i have no idea.
i'd like to keep my friends updated on my well-being but is this the only way to reach out to em.
i cried my heart out at 7:44 AM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Yesterday we did crazy stuff at my cousin's place..Both my cousins are also learning hip hop and so the three of us blasted the music at twelve midnite and danced til 1-2am. Haha. We were dancing, cheorograhphing new dance steps and pespiring profusely.
I am having fun now, playing with my cousin's doggie, a jack russel called 'Chocolate'. Hee. So naughty and hyperactive. Chocolate loves to play soccer & loves to bully people, but in actual fact, she is a very timid dog. She is skipping around me now. How i wish it's a little shih tzu!
I'm overly obessed with books! I'm not a bookworm but consectively for three days, i have been finding myself strolling into bookstores like Times, Borders, Kinokuniya & gettin myself lost in the jungle of books. There are loads of titles that interest me, and i found myself buying two japanese books within three days. It's interesting, kept me occupied throughout the bus & mrt rides to school. Though it's a waste of money, its a good investment.
Heading down to dance studio soon for another hour of letting loose! Last day of school tommorow! Wee!
Yesterday we did crazy stuff at my cousin's place..Both my cousins are also learning hip hop and so the three of us blasted the music at twelve midnite and danced til 1-2am. Haha. We were dancing, cheorograhphing new dance steps and pespiring profusely.
I am having fun now, playing with my cousin's doggie, a jack russel called 'Chocolate'. Hee. So naughty and hyperactive. Chocolate loves to play soccer & loves to bully people, but in actual fact, she is a very timid dog. She is skipping around me now. How i wish it's a little shih tzu!
I'm overly obessed with books! I'm not a bookworm but consectively for three days, i have been finding myself strolling into bookstores like Times, Borders, Kinokuniya & gettin myself lost in the jungle of books. There are loads of titles that interest me, and i found myself buying two japanese books within three days. It's interesting, kept me occupied throughout the bus & mrt rides to school. Though it's a waste of money, its a good investment.
Heading down to dance studio soon for another hour of letting loose! Last day of school tommorow! Wee!
i cried my heart out at 4:35 PM
true love changes a person. true love makes you do anything for that someone special.
don't try to keep someone you don't love by your side just to keep the person whom love you & play the safe game.
Time is not a factor in love. Happiness is a factor in time. there was happiness on one side but it bursted like a bubble cos there wasn't love.
going through the ups & downs, there wasn't anyone by my side. there was no concern simply cos it wasn't love. no sacrifice could be made to take the roller coaster ride with someone whom he doesn't love.
finding another way out when the person seems to be loved by others, wasn't love. it knew it could get on better without someone he doesnt love.
enlightened,
i knew i have never been loved. certainly.
i cried my heart out at 1:11 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
dammit..thought of something & gotta curse it boy. dammit, dammit!
Goin to cousin's house to stay tonight. Seems like i'm moving around pretty much these days staying in different people's houses... a 'traveller' to be called....
No school today, just bouncing around in hostel. Eating, ermm i mean snacking, blasting music, occasionally returning back to work, reading magazines, surfing net, daydreaming, you name it.
Going for some stress relieve therapy with my cousin in the evening. Which is? Duh.
Natas fair.
Great! it's nearing in a few days.
I need a 'kit kat'.
No qualms.
yasumi maji-de ga hoshii dayo.
dammit..thought of something & gotta curse it boy. dammit, dammit!
Goin to cousin's house to stay tonight. Seems like i'm moving around pretty much these days staying in different people's houses... a 'traveller' to be called....
No school today, just bouncing around in hostel. Eating, ermm i mean snacking, blasting music, occasionally returning back to work, reading magazines, surfing net, daydreaming, you name it.
Going for some stress relieve therapy with my cousin in the evening. Which is? Duh.
Natas fair.
Great! it's nearing in a few days.
I need a 'kit kat'.
No qualms.
yasumi maji-de ga hoshii dayo.
i cried my heart out at 1:44 AM
Monday, September 05, 2005
My heart says we've got something real
can i trust the way i feel
cos my heart has been fooled before
Am i just seeing what i want to see
or is it true?
Could u relive me?
someone to have & hold with all my heart & soul
i need to know, before i fall in love
someone who stays around, through all my ups & downs
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
Im at the point of no return
so afraid of gettiing burnt
but i wanna take a chance
oh please gimme a reason to believe
say u're the one that 'U will always be..
..someone to have & hold with all my heart & soul
i need to know, before i fall in love
someone who stays around, through all my ups & downs
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
its so hard for me to give my heart away
but i'll give my everything just to hear you say...
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
zutto issho-ni itai. sugoku suki. anata wa atashi-no kareshi
My heart says we've got something real
can i trust the way i feel
cos my heart has been fooled before
Am i just seeing what i want to see
or is it true?
Could u relive me?
someone to have & hold with all my heart & soul
i need to know, before i fall in love
someone who stays around, through all my ups & downs
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
Im at the point of no return
so afraid of gettiing burnt
but i wanna take a chance
oh please gimme a reason to believe
say u're the one that 'U will always be..
..someone to have & hold with all my heart & soul
i need to know, before i fall in love
someone who stays around, through all my ups & downs
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
its so hard for me to give my heart away
but i'll give my everything just to hear you say...
pls tell me now, before i fall in love..
zutto issho-ni itai. sugoku suki. anata wa atashi-no kareshi
i cried my heart out at 7:07 AM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
atashi no onechan naka nihon no zembum/zasshi. (my sister in japan's hometown newspaper)
atashi no onechan naka nihon no zembum/zasshi. (my sister in japan's hometown newspaper)
i cried my heart out at 7:23 AM
hip hop is contagious..geez
i cried my heart out at 7:04 AM
Chillin out til midnite at Indochine yesterday. Hi-life wasn't it? The stuff were expensive but heck it. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Should just indulge in more & more.
Went shopping with Johan. First stop Heeren til last stop in Far east. And we also went shopping for mooncakes at Takashimaya. All the hotel brands..yummy..just makes me go gaga! Still remember the mooncake faze & craze last year with someone & gained a few pounds. But i don't want my face to look like the full moon. Heez.
Woowee..This coming friday & i will be over the moon for my one week holiday has come & i am deciding on a short trip yea..before my long desired trip to Japan..maybe some beach resorts or shoppin in overseas can tame me down alittle. Greedy little me. Yes that's me.
i cried my heart out at 5:33 AM
Friday, September 02, 2005
Geez, all thanks to Liting yesterday, i managed to catch the last episode of 'Superstar' yesterday.
I stayed over at her house to watch as i didn't wanna stay in hostel to catch it. Both of us adore Junyang & Lin Junjie and our hearts were melting esp when Lin Junjie(JJ)was performing. Hehe.
After Superstar, which ended kinda late, we were lying on the beds and covering ourselves under thick blankets in her air-conditioned room chit-chatting til like 2am. Haha. Not forgetting there was school tommorow..which resulted in me yawning endlessly today. But fun yea!
Alright, i am not gonna do anywork this weekends i swear. I wanna go out & have FUN!
School's holiday approaching from the 10th of Sept for a week! *Beams Beams Beams* More enjoyment coming up!
Gee, as i was reading Calvin & Hobbes comics today, i realized the author seemed to be writing bout my life in the form of a comic strip. Becos i am someone who deludes myself in my own world & live life happily by talking to to my teddie. Just like how Calvin loves talking to Hobbes & treat him like a human being. HAHA.
Geez, all thanks to Liting yesterday, i managed to catch the last episode of 'Superstar' yesterday.
I stayed over at her house to watch as i didn't wanna stay in hostel to catch it. Both of us adore Junyang & Lin Junjie and our hearts were melting esp when Lin Junjie(JJ)was performing. Hehe.
After Superstar, which ended kinda late, we were lying on the beds and covering ourselves under thick blankets in her air-conditioned room chit-chatting til like 2am. Haha. Not forgetting there was school tommorow..which resulted in me yawning endlessly today. But fun yea!
Alright, i am not gonna do anywork this weekends i swear. I wanna go out & have FUN!
School's holiday approaching from the 10th of Sept for a week! *Beams Beams Beams* More enjoyment coming up!
Gee, as i was reading Calvin & Hobbes comics today, i realized the author seemed to be writing bout my life in the form of a comic strip. Becos i am someone who deludes myself in my own world & live life happily by talking to to my teddie. Just like how Calvin loves talking to Hobbes & treat him like a human being. HAHA.
i cried my heart out at 5:34 AM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
No school for these two days!
Went Mac with Harold & had my faves yesterday.
I made a trip down to my Sec school today. So nostalgic. When i stepped in there, the feeling was sooooo great. I don't know how to explain. In my heart, it's always a good school & still it is when you walk into the porch & see the countless acheivements and awards & with banners flying high 'Autonomous school', 'Top 10' blah. I have the urge to go back where i come from to teach. Nice new buildings & i'll never forget our motto 'Courteous, Righteous, Edified & Dignified'
It's teacher's day today, so not a sight of teachers around. I went to the check out the board of teachers and was amazed & squealing in excitement that so many of my favourite & inspiring teachers were still around. They will be very shocked to see me! Especially now that i'm going to back to apply for a position. I can't imagine working with my teachers, not as student to teachers, but colleagues to colleagues. They dote on me sooo much, it's so nice to see them again!
I was just discussing with Harold yesterday bout our ex-school. I felt that the people, especially the guys from our school are good 'men'. Why? Cos i noticed that majority of them turn out to be very mature, responsible, decisive & diligent. Is it due to the good teaching from our school teachers? Even as they grew older, they still have the good values & morals though temptations are everywhere. I must say, i'm very fortunate to have all of them close to me like buddies & happy to know that good guys still exist.
Rufhie, i will help ya check out the vacant position okie? Hope to work hand in hand with you. I heard they only have one teacher in charge right now. No HOD in my sch even for our subject!! So climb higher okie, then you can be the HOD. Kam ban te! i will be your subordinate, you know lah, i'm not so keen in promoting! Haha.
oh yah. Btw, 'Happy Teacher's Day' to all my friends in NIE.
No school for these two days!
Went Mac with Harold & had my faves yesterday.
I made a trip down to my Sec school today. So nostalgic. When i stepped in there, the feeling was sooooo great. I don't know how to explain. In my heart, it's always a good school & still it is when you walk into the porch & see the countless acheivements and awards & with banners flying high 'Autonomous school', 'Top 10' blah. I have the urge to go back where i come from to teach. Nice new buildings & i'll never forget our motto 'Courteous, Righteous, Edified & Dignified'
It's teacher's day today, so not a sight of teachers around. I went to the check out the board of teachers and was amazed & squealing in excitement that so many of my favourite & inspiring teachers were still around. They will be very shocked to see me! Especially now that i'm going to back to apply for a position. I can't imagine working with my teachers, not as student to teachers, but colleagues to colleagues. They dote on me sooo much, it's so nice to see them again!
I was just discussing with Harold yesterday bout our ex-school. I felt that the people, especially the guys from our school are good 'men'. Why? Cos i noticed that majority of them turn out to be very mature, responsible, decisive & diligent. Is it due to the good teaching from our school teachers? Even as they grew older, they still have the good values & morals though temptations are everywhere. I must say, i'm very fortunate to have all of them close to me like buddies & happy to know that good guys still exist.
Rufhie, i will help ya check out the vacant position okie? Hope to work hand in hand with you. I heard they only have one teacher in charge right now. No HOD in my sch even for our subject!! So climb higher okie, then you can be the HOD. Kam ban te! i will be your subordinate, you know lah, i'm not so keen in promoting! Haha.
oh yah. Btw, 'Happy Teacher's Day' to all my friends in NIE.
i cried my heart out at 11:37 PM