[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Monday, May 16, 2005

Work today was fine.I went there & Bill took a plate of oreo cookies & cream ice cream cake for me to eat & asked me to keep him company for a while. Again, we spent about 1 hour in the office eating, drinking & talking. He is pretty lonely & me & chris sympathize him as he lost his daughter a year & a half ago..she died of cancer & she was a pretty capable reporter in CBC. He would always talk about his daughter & remain silence for awhile. I felt kind of upset for him & would try to divert to talking bout other topics. I guessed that is the reason why he likes to talk to Chris & me, prob we reminded him of his daughter.

After work, we went back home, had a shower & went to a Chinese supermarket nearby as the rice at home was running out. Ber bought back a full size roast duck..*grunts..so oily. I am gona be fat. At work today, i ate two small donuts, a toasted butter bagel, a bottle of diet pepsi, the oreo ice cream cake that Bill gave & during our supermarket spree, i was starving & we bought a hawaiian pizza & a bag of fries to share. I told Ber i'm gonna put on weight from the way i eat, don't even mention the two huge sinful scoops of Nutella i ate for supper snack.

Its still very cold here, i thought the tempt gona rise as summer has arrived but i was so wrong. I'm pretty upset by the fact that i'm going home soon. Time seemed to past so fast here & i really do not wanna come here & learn nothing. For the past three weeks, all i experienced was the scenery & food. Now that i've started working, i learnt quite a fair share of the canadians culture & their language. I wanna learn more. I'm craving to get more knowledge before i go back. I'm glad that i practised my french when i was in Montreal, but it aint enough for me.

There are so many things i wanna accomplish in Canada. Put on a few pounds, learn their culture, upgrade my french & speak french when i have the opportunity, savour their authentic food, watch their tv programmes, spend quality time with Ber & Chris roaming about Canada, shopping (which i have done too much of it). I still feel something is lacking. I'm kind of happy that i've got the chance to experience working life here. But prob becos of that, time is running out pretty fast. I will miss the weather, the peaceful life & alot more. I don't know why, i really feel that i've not accomplish what i wanna achieve here & i do not wanna go back to S'pore with regrets. I do not wanna waste my precious time here! I want to cherish every secs of it & i mean business! *God pls help me! thank u =)

i cried my heart out at 9:07 PM