[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Life is a joke.

What gets me down? Ample stuff.

Am i satisfied with my life? words get stuck in my throat.

cos God knows everything that i'm worrying or upset about.

i can only pray that i lead a meaningful life. a beautiful life. for the times when i'm in this world. God, you know i desire that so much.

there are lotsa things i wanna do but chances are not given or should i say positively that the time isn't right yet.

i don't live my life for others. i live it for myself. i wanna create magic & rainbow in my life.

i learn to listen, i learn to heed but most of all, i must learn to decide what's best for myself.

What's the purpose of me being in the world. Is being a teacher really what God wants me to be? Then does God knows that this is not what i want? God knows my passion, my dreams. Then why am i here?

Is life unfair that you always can't get what you want? Time will tell isn't it. But i don't wanna lose my life to time.

When do i know i'm doing the right thing? I have no clue. Am i wrong to follow my passion? what can i get out of my passion in the end? Follow my heart. But does that work out perfectly? I'm lost.

i cried my heart out at 9:20 PM