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Sunday, March 13, 2005
tots of smoking, drinking and partying to drown myself. but its avoidance isnt it.

tots of taking a cigarette from my friend, tots of drinking til i never wake up and tots of partying all night and not come home.

but all these, its avoidance isnt it.

can a puff take my troubles away. can drinking drown my sorrows away. can partying everyday relieve my problems..i think its all very superficial. it goes back to emptiness soon

im losing myself so much. am i going to lose myself further. til i never find back who i use to be. thou im losing my mind, i hope im still a little awake.

I know when a person is upset, a person tends to do very wrong things. but i do not want to do wrong things that hurt myself, and especially hurt others. whatever i do, accounts for them as well. i will not let my love ones down.

i cried my heart out at 10:19 PM


A girl with big dreams

STELLA
A gemini twin; June 15th
A dreamer; unrealistic
A petite lady
A devoted lover
A gullible kid;A silly baby
A child-like nature
A fashion fanatic; loves design
A fun-loving gal
A chirpy talkative
A simple yet complex personality
A crazy chick
A language lover
Jap, Korean & French
A soft-hearted girl
A beach gal wannabe
A R&B lover; A hip-hop fan
An amatuer dancer; street jazz & hip hop

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