[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

I would still have to take a shuttle bus from my Hall 4 to NIE. Simply because NTU is huge and my hall 4 is too far distance from NIE. Idiotic. Furthermore, i still gota pay for the shuttle bus. Tsk. So troublesome. The purpose of moving there is to remove the hassle of taking transport to school. But now...Sigh.

I pray it would be a good stay.Dear father, please be with me. Have been hearing lotsa scary stuff bout staying in a hostel. And they kept telling me that there would be thieves and i better be careful with my new imac laptop. Okie sorry Johan, must have made you remember the lost of your favourite watch. Now i'm pretty scared of losin my stuff as well. *frowns

Should i say i'm happy these few weeks? Since i'm dancing everyday without fail. There are still lotsa changes going on and i'm trying to adapt to it. I can move in from the 15th of July onwards & i would be busy 'revamping' my room & settling down before school starts. My appointment with the specialist has been moved to an earlier date, which is 26th of this month and it's only the second day of my school & i've gotta take medical leave. Hmm, mmm...don't tell me my treatment will start earlier then? I don't want to die but i don't want to have treatment as well. Its kind of a torture. Sometimes i think, wouldn't it be better if i make myself happy everyday and even if i were to live a shorter life, i should be contented that way.

Dear harold is right, my life is full of drama. Somehow it can be depicted as a japanese or korean tear-jerker long episodes drama. There will always be a girl who found out that she has illness (usually cancer or leukemia, something like mine), and this man that she loves but can't be with him due to family opposition, misunderstandings, third party etc and then another man who loves this sickly girl & willing to take care of her but the love is not recipocrated. Sounds familiar right. Its always so predictable in dramas. These shows always made me cry buckets and probably i should be watching my own drama somehow. Sigh.

i cried my heart out at 8:50 PM