[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Monday, July 04, 2005

Ugh!! I called NTU today and got to know that i'm allocated to Hall 4. And its considered one of the expensive hostel. So i thought it was good. I went to check out the website and i was so disappointed! It wasn't the Halls that i liked. Those chalet-liked houses are all Halls 10-16. And its only $5 more than my Hall 4. Idiot. They don't allow freshies to choose!!!

I am so upset!!! I've never seen Hall 4 before and they don't even post pictures of the rooms. Now, it made me really scared. I asked her what's the difference between the cheap rooms and the expensive rooms and she said the structure are different and the expensive hostels will have cleaners to help wash the toilets for us. Hall 3 roomies gota wash toilets themselves. *Phew. BUT i am still feeling so upset i don't know why. (okay maybe bcos the exterior looks plain & normal & i'm upset by ugly stuff)

There is one matter i should jump for joy but i can't. And that is, i was praying to god that i'll get a hostel that i can install air-con. And it happened that among all the halls in NTU, only Hall 4 is allowed to install air-cons and the other halls can only bring in fans. However, my parents do not want to install air-con for me!!!! I wanna cry...they say i can live with a fan cos i'm not gona stay there for long. Oh pls...i never sleep in non air-con room for dino years. I'm not spoilt. But i hate Singapore weather. They don't even wanna get me a cooler. Humph. I guess i gota get it myself. Remember, i am a person who wanna get whatever i want. Urgh..it means i gota spend my own money again.

Expenses expenses..they really make my head grow bigger. My dance classes ain't cheap and i'm like goin so frequently, soon i gotta sign up another new package which gona cost few hundereds again. I need to buy furniture, clothes for school and its all on my own expense. Not forgetting the stupid medical bills that really make me crazy. Ugh...why must my liver be inflammed and don't they know that i'm freakin afraid of injections. Why why why...i'm goin mad.

i cried my heart out at 12:52 AM