[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Advanced girls hip hop was terrible today. The dance steps were too fast. I couldn't catch up. Well, i should console myself that since it's my first time learning hip hop and i didn't learn well, it should be okay but instead i kept calling myself a dumbo. I guess that would probably make me practise harder. I don't know why i'm putting so much pressure on myself. Prob it's because its something that i really like and i wanna do well. i'm sure everyone wants to do well at something they like.

I came back and practised for another hour. Today's lessons didn't make me sweat that much cos i wasn't able to catch up so i came back and gave myself an intensive training of street jazz plus hip hop and pespire like crazy. I do like girls hip hop after attending today's lessons, lotsa sticking chest & butt out, very sexy moves as well. But i don't understand why they only have advanced classes. It does fear me for having thoughts of next week lessons, i'm gona be stressed up durin the lessons. I kept frowning instead of smiling today.

I thought of attending dance class tomorrow again. It's J/K pop jam tomorrow (those moves u see in japanese & korean MTV) and i'm determined to go for street jazz this sunday again. I know its crazy. But i enjoy it (though i'm stressed each time during lessons) and i believe practise makes perfect. i wanna be consistent. Stella must make it. Stella cannot be a dumbo.

I'm gonna buy huge mirrors so that i can have a condusive environment to dance at home or at the hostel.

i cried my heart out at 8:25 PM