[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Friday, August 26, 2005

i baked scotch pancakes, raisin scones & almond cookies today. so fun!

It wasn't a good week, i hope it ends soon & have a great kickstart.

At least i had fun in street jazz class today. Was dancing to the song 'Lady Marmalade' & the instructor kept shouting 'sexy' 'sexy' 'sexy' & shake the butts. Beams. Very fun & sexy dance today, i lurve em.

I learnt in my own life, that i cannot be happy about anything. Cos once i start to feel excited or happy over something, everything starts to crumble or it just come to a standstill. I rather not have any 'emotions'.

don't envy me. i don't like it when people envy me. What's there in my life to be envious about? i envy others instead. Kick me, slap me, do whatever you want if that can make me start living afresh pursuing my desired dreams.

i'm really dying to be a brand new me. i've changed over the months while many have been saying to me 'you've become stronger, you just didn't realized' So does that mean that i've to meet several mishaps again & again to be a superwoman. Can they spare me the rod? I'm just a human being. Right, a human being.

I agree life is not a bed of roses. But stop pricking me with thorns.

i can't say i'm happy. Cos remember? if i say i'm happy, unfortunate events starts to take place. So let's just say i'm glad that i'm dancing away to a new stella. Hah. why i say that? Cos everytime when people hear that i'm learning street jazz/girls hip hop, they'll look at me from head-to-toe, trying to figure me out of the 'ballet' or 'girly' image. C'mon, like i said, i'm different now. I lurve street jazz....its absolutely funky,hippy & sexy. i just can't wait to get out of s'pore & spend my precious time in Tokyo soon. It's an anticipation for me to carry on with my life each day.

i cried my heart out at 9:17 AM