[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Monday, April 18, 2005

Well, Bangwei was off today. So he called me & wanted to meet me up. i said 'Okay, im going down to hospital, you wanna meet me there?' He agreed.

So after knowing all the medical results & stuff..Went for a destresser...we went walking around at Bugis & took a bus down to Suntec. I walked into Mango & saw this bag that i have been eyeing for so long..seen people carrying it, lurve it but didnt know was from Mango..was desiring to have it and i tot i could find it in Canada..Yikes and i saw it at Mango!!

He took it & said 'I will buy it for you,i wanted to buy a prezie for you before you leave.' I was like...huh..No don't! I am not leaving for a long time. It's just 6 weeks. Then he said 'Let me just buy it for you..' So i asked 'Well, you know i'm dying right..so you just wanna make me happy..my last wishes right..' I can't believe i'm still joking bout it. But well, i did make a joke out of my illness. Cos after that he suddenly asked if i wanna eat Yami yoghurt..and i looked at him..Shocked..Cos i was actually craving for it. And i joked again 'Today seems like i can have things that i desire..all my last wishes came true.' Laughs..

I have to fast..cos i gota go for ultrasound tomorrow. I am so hungry. I only ate 1 sushi around 5pm & after 6pm today til tomorrow noon, i can't have food. Well, i gota keep myself happy..i cannot stress..cos the doc says it will aggrevate my condition. Can i be happy everyday? That's my wish.

i cried my heart out at 7:39 PM