[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Many envy me for being able to travel to Toronto all by myself..& staying there for a period of time.

I used to envy myself too,few weeks ago..that i could travel alone & it could be the greatest adventure for me. Now, i realized that i have a price to pay for having this sponspored air-tix by my parents.I have to make an oath to my parents. It's an oath that is suffocating me. That is why now i seem to can't leave at ease. I know they have good intentions. But i am so afraid of disappointing them.

The tots of the long hours of flight is making me feel dread right now. Going to get some sleeping pills from the doc. Who can i talk to in the plane? The air stewards...well British Airways air stewards are really friendly..nah.I prob stare at my mini tv,channel-surfing all the boring movies. No internet,sigh. Otherwise i can blog about how bored i am in the plane.I hope they will notice this little lost girl in the plane & keep an eye on me. Suddenly, i feel like i'm matilda.

I wonder what kind of feelings will i have when i touch down at London. Cos i still have another plane to catch after stopover at London.*wails........Its not fun.

Suppose to meet Jason at 10pm, well, changed to 8pm now. Feeling bored,going to die. Wanna go out for a breather. I need brainwash pills!!! no maybe i should just seek god.

i cried my heart out at 7:00 PM