[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Saturday, August 27, 2005

I was looking back at my past entries, from Jan to August 2005.

I am amazed. Really amazed. With what? For the fact that time doesn't stop & wait for me.

Reading all the entries one by one, i realized & started to recollect many things that i've gone through.

Starting from my dumbfounded shocked of the Tsunami incident(can u believe it? Its been more than 8 months but it's still so vivid in my mind), to the many times that i was in confusion whether to end my r/s because i was upset to the time that i finally broke up & was struggling to stay alive. It all happened during the first three months of the year.

Scrolled thru lotsa photos & had flashbacks of many incidents. Good or bad.i also realized something..though i did change a wee bit, i'm still the ME trying to find answers to my life.

Then the anticipation of going to Canada & USA, thinking of what air-lines to take, having so much desire to fly off & not come back, dying to see Niagara falls etc and guess what? It happened. While i was reading my entries bout the excitement to fly to London & fly to Canada, i was thinking 'Dear me, it wasn't a dream & the excitement was fufilled.' And my months of April-June in Canada was well-spent. Seeing the photos i posted up, i know that was the best time in my entire life. The entries were all so happy & optimistic. I found many goals in Canada & wanted to pursue em.

Now that August is coming to an end, i looked backed at June til now & see that i'm pursing my dreams at least. My dreams are my very own secrets. I'm not gonna revealed it here. Now that i'm so anticipated to go Japan in the coming months, will it be all over again soon & i'll be reading my blog & see what i've done in Japan. No, i wouldn't want that to happen. Cos I wanna spend every minute savouring & appreciating the fact that i've the chance to be able to visit many of my dream countries this year & spend so much time in there. I'm glad i'm not in Japan yet cos i wanna plan how am i going to spend it fruitfully over there.

i cried my heart out at 2:43 AM