[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Thursday, April 21, 2005

What a day spent at the hospital today,i'm exhausted.Luckily Harold was there to accompany me throughout the whole consultation at SGH. Thank u! The specialist said that im a 'chronic hepatitis' What does chronic means? It means serious, permanent condition with no cure. I am allowed to travel but i have to do lotsa follow up with the hospital. Charges for all the medical fees today? 400bucks! I'm sucha burden to my parents. Okay a horrifying scene that i described to my friends in the afternoon today. The specialist told me that i've got to take blood test. Again? Yes again..

I reluctantly waited for my queue no. & i got astounded when the nurse called out my name. I followed her into the room, my eyes opened bigger when i saw this cute-looking guy standing there(around my age) with gloves on his hands waiting for me. Alright, its not because he was good-looking that's why i am shocked! Its because i could sense that he was on attachment!! So which means that he is an amatuer in taking blood & im his guinea pig??? I kept staring at him, looking at every moves he made. He was finding for my veins & when he said 'Okay,i will inject this hand.', I looked at him skeptically & said 'Are you sure is this hand?'. He just smiled. Before he poked the needle in, I admitted loudly 'I am very scared.' The professional nurse heard what i said, smiled,came over & aided him.

Owells, this wasn't the best part. Yea so the needle went in..& i saw blood oozing out into a tube. I was relieved cos i thought it was over, but he plucked out the tube(filled with blood) & inserted another empty tube & i saw my blood filling up another tube again. 'Huh, why do you take 2 tubes of blood?' I asked helplessly. He answered 'Not only 2, i gota take 4 tubes of it.' I gave a pathetic laugh. Omigod..are you joking with me? But what can i do..I just sit there helplessly waiting for the 4 tubes of blood to be filled & wonder if i've got so much blood to waste. Harold kept peeping at me, laughing sheepishly. Humph! Haha. It will be your turn sometime!

5 hours spent in SGH. Harold rode me to Bugis, where i met my dear friends. Had MOS burger & some catching up before i leave S'pore. Thank you all of u for being so concern, hugs! Gota rush home because i gota visit my GP in the evening. GP saw my report & said that my values are very high & this value is actually a marker for cancer so which means that im at high risk of cancer. Hmm..okay.. 2 yrs ago,my cancer marker was 4.1 (which was considered high risk). Now its 27.4!!!!!! Imagine how much it has gone up to now..I'm already thinking positively & being happy ya.

Anyway, now the situation is just to wait & see if the antibodies in my body are able to fight with the Hep b viruses that are actively trying to kill my good cells. (report out next week) If not, i will be on long term medication & will have side effects.

*I can't wait til Saturday to meet up with Bren & Ceres. Bren suggested Cafe cartel! Yeah!! I can get to eat the bread once again. chuckles
*Harold, have a safe trip in Tioman & have fun diving. Hope u'll have some adventures with baby sharks & tell me all about it on Monday ya! Thx so much for today. W/o you, i'm a lost baby! giggles
*Zane, i hope you have recovered from your illness. Take care of yourself & god bless. Smiles!

i cried my heart out at 9:37 PM