[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Monday, July 18, 2005

I want a better life. And that means that i need changes.

I guess there are many areas that i wanna change.

I better find myself first before i make all these changes. That's why i need time alone to think it through.

All the things that i went through, must mould me. To see things in more perspective & to react maturely. But once i've learnt, i'm gonna erase every bad things & hope they wouldn't affect me in my future.

Most important things i've learnt is to listen to people's advice & not always trust my intuitions or be stubborn & resist them. I realized many things that i've done wrong was because i rather listen to myself & still continue to do the wrong things when i know it is wrong.

The second thing i've learnt is to look out for people's actions. Many times people's actions are kinda clear that they will harm me but i choose to ignore & think that they would change, but still they turn out to be people who betray me. I don't want to end up as the victim all the time.

I'm old enough. I must be able to differentiate between right & wrong, good & bad. I made a long prayer to god today, hopefully he heard me.

'People has always been singing, to ease the pains of the heart. Music is the key..that sets me free.' That is why i love dancing. I changed into a total different person when i dance & enter into a world that belongs to mine..

i cried my heart out at 12:26 AM