[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Father, i would like to end the night with a few prayers:

'Father, i thank you for planning ordeals in my life to make me grow. Though initially, i was asking why do i have to go through such troubles and i was seeking an answer from you but the answer never came and i was impatient. But you answered my prayers and gave me an answer eventually.'

'Father, i know that if life is a bed of roses, humans will never learn anything. Only through ordeals does one learn in life, i guess we only learn the hard way for we shall not make the mistake once again. Though i have gone through the most upset times of my life in 21 yrs, the roller-coaster rides for the past 1 month, i have not blamed you father. I know you wanted me to learn something out of it and i did'

'At first, i thought going to the bible study has disrupted everything in my life because thats when all the troubles started coming in and i couldn't handle it but now i know, its a blessing in disguise. You have given me a clear answer by letting me see the whole picture day by day. Although it pricks me father, it would hurt me for awhile but i have gotten rid of the permanent pain that you do not wish to befall upon me. Its going to take, i dont know how long to recover and adapt to my new life, but i know you will always be with me'

'Father, im looking forward to be baptised on easter sunday.' Amen.

i cried my heart out at 7:42 AM