[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Friday, October 07, 2005

To those who thinks that my thinking is a little way too far-fetched. I guess i know to a certain extent, i'm weird. I don't think like a human being. I'm alienated.

I had prata with Amy & her boss at Bukit Timah yesterday night & i'm glad that i talk to someone who has gone through many different experiences in life. I learnt alot, or should i say, he managed to grasp what i'm stuck at and throw a few open ended Q that triggers me to think. I didn't know i was that lost, til he pointed out the confusions i had. I went back, drew a mind map of my life & voila! I have a clearer picture of myself. I realized too, i didn't like myself that much.

Well, i also talked to two distant cousins of mine today & learnt a few things from them. I am surprised at how many people urged me to do that(hmm,keep it personal). They are very positive & encouraging. Thanks to all who gives me support & pushing. I'm very touched.

I went to collect my JAL air-tickets yesterday. It was a relieve to see the genuine air-tickets on my hand. It seems more realistic that i'm going to Japan. In less than 2 months, I wanna fly & i really want to be happy. Dear god, i pray that everything will go smoothly & safely. Amen.

i cried my heart out at 6:34 AM