[Stella's daily confessions. I dare to confess, i love to express & i live to impress]

Friday, October 07, 2005

I know deep in my heart, if i were able to go & start afresh in a foreign land, i would be happy. I don't mind doing it alone.

I want to leave Singapore for good. I want to forget every unhappiness that i have had ever since i was little.

I know i wouldn't be affected by people around me if i leave, cos there will be out of my sight, out of reach, out of my mind.

I know when i wake up, i look around me & see something different, knowing that the people i dislike or hurting me are thousands miles away, greeting someone new each day..that would be a life i dream of.

I do not have to be a successful career lady, I do not need to climb up the coporate ladder. I just need a simple new life in a new environment. Casting every barriers aside, i have to leave. I want to leave, so much so it's in my mind every second.

I am aware of how carefree i was in Canada, & seriously being there has never once made me think of a past that i hated most. I love the new environment, i embrace each day with a smile.

I'm going to do whatever it takes to be there. Bring me to a place where i really belong. It's going to be a slow process & i'll have to be tolerant. I WILL pursue it.

i cried my heart out at 11:10 PM